NWSTRT2121 Posted October 17, 2008 Posted October 17, 2008 i keep thinking im out of this i keep thinking my life is destined for great things...and then it all goes back to square one...back to where i was feeling a year ago alone in my room everynight crying and feeling sorry for myself. i cant meet a woman who is dependable i cant meet friends who are loyal, caring and understand who i am. ive gotten involved in so many things this semester but i dont feel any better right now than I did a year ago. i dont have that gutwrenching pain in my stomach i used to have over my ex a year ago, but I still cant help but take a peek at her myspace once a month. i know i shud stop this vicious cycle of being so hard on myself, but I can't shake it. There are days I wake up and feel like things went ok then there are days that end where I feel like I want to enter a depression clinic. I have wonderful loving parents and am a fulltime college student trying to get involved in as much as i can, but at the end of the day I feel lonely. I feel empty I feel like I am nothing. Just venting I suppose tomorrow is always a brighter day...well at least I hope it is.
Geishawhelk Posted October 17, 2008 Posted October 17, 2008 .....Are you asking something, or just having a bit of a 'rant-moment'....?
quankanne Posted October 17, 2008 Posted October 17, 2008 *have* you been counseled or screened for depression? I know when i was going through my bad funk several years ago, I just couldn't get to a happy place. It was like life was going on around me, and I was watching it from my underwater lair, separated from what was going on. Thank goodness for my doctor, who identified my depression with the medical, physical and psychological stress I'd been dealing with for the better part of a year – he got me started on anti-depressants, and though it took awhile, I finally got back to a healthier me.
BlueHarvest Posted October 17, 2008 Posted October 17, 2008 Yea but medicine doesn't "cure" the depression...what did you do to actually fix yourself to become a happier you?
quankanne Posted October 17, 2008 Posted October 17, 2008 medicine doesn't "cure" the depression. no, but a successful regimen just readjusts blood chemistry to it proper levels so the depression abates. http://www.mental-health-matters.com/articles/article.php?artID=160
Author NWSTRT2121 Posted October 17, 2008 Author Posted October 17, 2008 Hi everyone thanks for replying. Ive taken a number of depression tests and I speak with a therapist about once a month and he says that I'm fine. Usually I am emotionally stable, but some days I just freak out. I feel like if things arent working out and my life isn't going in the direction i want it to after a period of time, I get really low on myself. I begin to question myself and wonder why bother doing what I am doing if I still feel as empty as I did a year ago. I'm in a church group, im pledging a fraternity on campus, i'm involved in a Mentorship program where I hang out with a younger boy a few hours a week, I have a job, I go to school full time, I have awesome loving parents who are just a short drive away from where I live... but still I don't feel happy or satisfied. Just lonely and empty...
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