Trust Issues..

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So Ive been dating this girl for 8 months are we are completely in love.. But a couple weeks ago she told me about this guy friend she's had since she was little, and that he had told her he was completely in love with her. She me that she told him that they couldnt be friends anymore if he felt that way, because she was in love with me.

 

That was the last I had heard about that. Well last night we went to dinner, and I asked her what she did that day and she told me that she went to go see a movie with her friend and this guy that was in love with her... I was pissed. I talked to her about it after, and she said that she was just kind of testing the waters, seeing if she could "just be friends" with him without him confessing his feelings. I told her I didnt want her to talk to him or to hang out with him anymore, and she was fine with it. She agreed that it was messed up of her to hang out with him, especially because he had told her he was in love with her... So we ended the night with that, that she was sorry and she wouldnt talk to him anymore.

 

But heres where my trust issues falter. When we first started dating, she kissed another guy. Our relationship to start with was rocky at best, and neither one of us thought it was going anywhere.. So I forgave her for what happened. But the thing is.. She waited until we had been dating for 6 months to tell me about it. She said she waited to tell me because she was afraid I wouldve broken up with her. And the truth is, I would have. But 6 months in.. I had already fallen for her, so it was easy for me to forgive her.

 

So now Im just frustrated with her. Im mad at her again for kissing some random guy when we first started dating, Im mad at her for not telling me for 6 months, and now Im mad at her for hanging out with this friend of hers again after he confessed he was in love with her.

 

I dont know what to do.. I love her more than anything.. And she didnt try to hide that she hung out with this guy, she even showed me a text he sent her, and she said she told him they werent going to hang out anymore, and she was sorry about it. But just the fact that she hid kissing another guy from me for nearly 6 months.. I dont know if I can ever fully trust her again.