Just need to talk ....

[mendsley]

I have had a couple of hard days. I have been seperated for almost two months and am so confused. She lives about 10 hours from me so I can't just take her out and spend some time together. I feel we are growing apart and I feel this serperation is turning to divorce. She is living with her lady friend and the house has many people so I know it is hard for her and our kids. I have been trying to be as supportive as I can financially and emotionally but I am starting to get tired and broke. I have been seeing a counselor for about a month and we are talking about relationship rescue and I do want this. I have seen improvements in myself in the way I have been talking to her but she is not doing nothing to help herself thru this.

 

I really do love her and the kids and people always say that I need to find myself but, its hard when one half of me lives 10 hours away. I have suggested that maybe we should see a marriage counselor and she says maybe once she gets settled. The last few days I can see a change in how she talks to me, she used to call me Mikey rather than Mike, well I am no longer Mikey just Mike. She used to check on me almost everyday and now I get nothing. I am really trying so hard to save our relationship but I get nothing back from her that says this is what she wants.

 

I am thinking really hard on what to do here, I want to keep trying but I don't know if I should keep it up if she has already made up her mind and just is not telling me. I want to call her tonight and get it all figured out but I have a feeling it is just not that easy. I want to play my cards right and not make any rash desicions that will affect her and my future in a negative. We do have some time planned together over thanksgiving so....I don't know...maybe I should spend the time with her and the kids over thanksgiving and see where that leads. I just hate the thought of false hope, I would like to start working on recovery now than keep prolonging it just because; she is being nice, not having the heart to break the news, and or she just needs money. Thanks for listening....