mark982 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman,waaaay back,when you started this post,i asked you to watch out for having a pfa put on your azz,as i would effect future gun ownership. and you replied that yes you were a hunter,but didn't know a pfa would effect that.so that's how i know about your weapons. skinman,like you i've suffered from depression ALL my life,i've tried to do my self in at 16 with a 12 gauge,if it wasn't for my cousin coming in at the right time. i wouldn't be writting this. you have a damn good support system in place here,all of us would gladly sit up all night to try helping you out,and deep down you know that.if a smuck like me can make it through my wife cheating(caught my wife in bed with my uncle--so now my ex-wifes my aunt,and my kids my cousin,sounds like i should be from kentucky)but skinman there's just sooo much you have to offer your children,you just don't reaalise it yet. and you can't forget the grandkids,no those are just sooo much fun. AGAIN---PLEASE CALL A FRIEND AND HAVE GUNS REMOVED! god bless you,skinman Link to post Share on other sites
mark982 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman, july 23rd,i'll be sober 5 yrs. i'm not to sure if you should be consirned w/ this right now.do you have a sponser you can call? Link to post Share on other sites
Author skinman Posted April 25, 2009 Author Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman, july 23rd,i'll be sober 5 yrs. i'm not to sure if you should be consirned w/ this right now.do you have a sponser you can call? No sponser Mark982... But your last post made me chuckle friend.... Sounds like a pretty messed up situation with reagrds to you uncle, aunt and kids being nephews... ..... Thanks man... I needed that buddy... And i remeber now about the gun chat.. glad to read that your cousin helped us both without even knowing it..... Thank him for me... Link to post Share on other sites
pelicanpreacher Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 No sponser Mark982... But your last post made me chuckle friend.... Sounds like a pretty messed up situation with reagrds to you uncle, aunt and kids being nephews... ..... Thanks man... I needed that buddy... And i remeber now about the gun chat.. glad to read that your cousin helped us both without even knowing it..... Thank him for me... Now begins your hard march from the precipice. Thanks Mark982! Link to post Share on other sites
mark982 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman, family reunions are the GREATEST i'll go running up to her"aunti rose,aunti rose,how you doing.haven't seen you in along time" she'll be mumbling,calling me a azzhole. everyones bustinga gut.why she still comes to the reunions is beyond me,but i love the hell outta it.as you can tell i love making a seen,or is it making a azz outta myself:laugh: Link to post Share on other sites
pelicanpreacher Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Immediately get in touch with your counselor or therapist and admit that you are thinking thoughts of fatal suicide! Link to post Share on other sites
Author skinman Posted April 25, 2009 Author Share Posted April 25, 2009 Immediately get in touch with your counselor or therapist and admit that you are thinking thoughts of fatal suicide! Thanks PP... Not to make light of a delicate situation but aren't most sucides... fatal.. Sorry just poking some fun....... I feel much better after yours and mark982 comments...Thanks guys.. I am going to retire for the evening.... may the Lord bless us all this morning...... Link to post Share on other sites
Author skinman Posted April 25, 2009 Author Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman, family reunions are the GREATEST i'll go running up to her"aunti rose,aunti rose,how you doing.haven't seen you in along time" she'll be mumbling,calling me a azzhole. everyones bustinga gut.why she still comes to the reunions is beyond me,but i love the hell outta it.as you can tell i love making a seen,or is it making a azz outta myself:laugh: Send me a PM Mark982..... I hear that trout fishing in PA is pretty good this time of year......... skin... Link to post Share on other sites
PWSX3 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Skin, I sent you an email.......... Monday (if not sooner) get your a$$ to a doctor & get looked at. If you are on meds they are not working so let them know & they can help you try something else. Like the bible says; God will not put us thru something we can not handle....Don't make me get that 2x4 a4a hit me over the head with & do the same to you!!!!!! Or worse yet, I'll sick GUNNY on you!!! Link to post Share on other sites
skywriter Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Yea "Skin", get yourself rested and ready for all the blessings and prepare for all the future has in store for you! Link to post Share on other sites
Gunny376 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Skin, I sent you an email.......... Monday (if not sooner) get your a$$ to a doctor & get looked at. If you are on meds they are not working so let them know & they can help you try something else. Like the bible says; God will not put us thru something we can not handle....Don't make me get that 2x4 a4a hit me over the head with & do the same to you!!!!!! Or worse yet, I'll sick GUNNY on you!!! I've GOT to leave this one alone for 24/48 hours! :mad::mad::mad::mad: Suicide yourself over a piece of @ss! WTF are you thinking? Link to post Share on other sites
Athena Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 oh... guys I am so broken... i feel so alone that nothing I have done has helped I dont care anymore...I have been so depressed that even medication hasn't helped... I am tired of the pain ..i am tired of the sleepless nights I am exhausted and dont know where to turn, Richard, you can always call 911 as a last resort. There is no need to take your life, alone and depressed. There are ways to help you, but you need to ask for help. Link to post Share on other sites
PWSX3 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Skin, I hope you woke up today with a better light on life & you will dust yourself off, ask yourself WTF hit me & get back on that trail of recovery.... It is worth it!!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Nomad1 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 You need to man up Skinman! WTH! It is all to do with perception! You see your situation as being bad! Man, you ain't seen nothing yet! There are greater things in life than your pitiful ex! Wake up! Man up! You need someone to slap you hard so that you can realise that actually, you are much better off than you think! For a start, you are breathing, so you are alive! That is the greatest gift you can have! All the love and money in the world can not bring life back! Stay with us on this planet man! We are so lucky to be alive! Let's celebrate life man! Nomad1 Link to post Share on other sites
Nomad1 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 I am infurated by your posts Skinman, I am posting again! So you care more about a woman with no integrity than you care about yourself! Who will care about you when you clearly don't give a damn about you! You MUST love thyself man! Only then will you be able to love and care for the little woman you brought into this world! Ending your life will mess her up for the rest of her life! You are weak and selfish! Pull yourself together and man up! Take it like a man, Skinman! Link to post Share on other sites
lisa671 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Skinman, by you keeping conversation leads me to believe that you have great friends and you too are a great person. Hope you had a good nights sleep. People who care about you are waiting to hear from you again. Keep the conversations going. All of these posts really help me deal with my marital issues. Keep me in the loop. Link to post Share on other sites
Author skinman Posted April 25, 2009 Author Share Posted April 25, 2009 I am infurated by your posts Skinman, I am posting again! So you care more about a woman with no integrity than you care about yourself! Who will care about you when you clearly don't give a damn about you! You MUST love thyself man! Only then will you be able to love and care for the little woman you brought into this world! Ending your life will mess her up for the rest of her life! You are weak and selfish! Pull yourself together and man up! Take it like a man, Skinman! Thank you Nomad1 and everyone else... My thoughts last night were very selfish and I wasnt thinking about all the people I would leave in the end.. They are whats important.. You are right I have been weak and pathetic during this.. Giving so much of my thoughts to someone who clearly doesn't deserve them.. Monday i will be going to my Dr. and talking this over with her to see if maybe she can help me get it straightened out.... I think I need to lay of the booze for a while too.... nothing good seems to come of my drinking only dark thoughts. Thank you all again for all the support and encouragement..... I dont know what I would have done without you all....... Link to post Share on other sites
Author skinman Posted April 25, 2009 Author Share Posted April 25, 2009 Skin, I hope you woke up today with a better light on life & you will dust yourself off, ask yourself WTF hit me & get back on that trail of recovery.... It is worth it!!!!! Thanks PWS....... I appreciate your kind words and I feel much better today...... Link to post Share on other sites
Chrome Barracuda Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Thanks PWS....... I appreciate your kind words and I feel much better today...... ...That's what it takes, one day at a time. You didnt loose anything, get your head back into the game. Your a single father by circumstance not by choice. But your gonna be a great father. aint no other way the OM is gonna outshine you. Just take care of yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
PWSX3 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 Thanks PWS....... I appreciate your kind words and I feel much better today...... Good to hear from you my friend.....You have learned some lessons here, that you do need to see a doctor which is the first step but please follow thru & get the help, & that drinking doesn't do ANYONE any good..... Remember what you learned so you don't have to come back to those ideas again....If we learn from our mistakes then they are lessons, when we don't that is ignorance/stupidity!!! Link to post Share on other sites
mark982 Posted April 25, 2009 Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman, so glad to see you're feeling somewhat better today! and glad your seeing dr. monday. i said a extra prayer for you last night. Link to post Share on other sites
Author skinman Posted April 25, 2009 Author Share Posted April 25, 2009 skinman, so glad to see you're feeling somewhat better today! and glad your seeing dr. monday. i said a extra prayer for you last night. Thank you for the prayers Mark982... I appreciate all that I can get... To be honest i feel great this evening... I just got back from seeing my stepdaughter going to her first prom.... the P.O.S. was there and we didnt talk much at all but i looked at her and how she interacted with our daughters.... She has such a nasty tone to her voice when she speaks to anyone especially them....... I thought to myself what a waste that would have been and to leave my daughter alone at her mercy would have been such a tragedy in itself... I think I needed to be at my rock bottom before I can climb out if this funk and start living again.... I haven't lived the past 6 months I have existed thats all I can say I have been doing........ I know when we left she was going to see him... I made the comment "you have the house all alone again tonight" she gave me a nasty look and I smiled... I took a small amount of pleasure out of pissing her off some... she has been getting rid of both girls almost each weekend... Its wrong what she does to them and I let her know...... hopefully this is what I needed..... a swift kick in my a$$ to get me going.. Thanks again for everything..... Link to post Share on other sites
Navin_R_Johnson Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 Skin, glad you're feeling better. I can relate to your situation, your thoughts, and your frame of mind last night. Been there. Stop the drinking. There are NO answers there. I went through this, and finally got sick of feeling sick every morning. I would wake up hating myself for drinking, and feeling physically sick about half the day. I cherish a good night's sleep, and drinking does not allow me to have that!! It also slows your emotional healing. Try Gunny's melatonin recomendation! or even Tylenol PM. it works just fine. No booze in a couple of years for me and I feel so great. Link to post Share on other sites
Athena Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 Try Gunny's melatonin recomendation! or even Tylenol PM. it works just fine. No booze in a couple of years for me and I feel so great. Tylenol PM has the exact same substance as Benadryl in it, so if you don't need the pain relief, go buy some Benedryl pills... take two to get to sleep. Works exactly like Tylenol PM. Not addictive either. Link to post Share on other sites
LakesideDream Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 Skin, skin, skin.... I just caught up with this thread. What is this malfunction about? I thought we went all through this.. some sleepless nights nearly six months ago now. Croaking yourself isn't an answer to your current situation, you know that, I know that, hell everyone knows it. I'm sorry that your STBXW confirmed she has a new serious squeeze. I know you realized it was a possibility... but you also refused to consider the ramifications. Truely it's just another step Skin. Believe it or not in a few weeks it's going to start making things easier. Been there remember? Done it, all of it... and worse. Been to hell, came out the otherside because if nothing else I wasn't going to be defeated. You are better than all of it. Go to the doc, get something for that depression. Lay off the booze .. Why not go spend some time in the woods away from booze, and phones? Throw in a line see what happens. Broil a steak or two over the coals (don't forget the tin foil for your potatoes). Or hell, come visit me, I'll kick your ass but good. Link to post Share on other sites
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