Hard times

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I am not sure if this is to be expected, but my engagement period has been one of the most stressful times of my life, I just can't believe I have made it this far (or we) have made it this far in the planning and now it is less than 2 months away, THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I have no doubts about loving him or not and if anything I think and am hopeful that our relationship has matured these 10 months.

 

From disagreeing with family members about the way the wedding should be, having family fueds that wouldn't have been brought up if I was not getting married, from who gets along, to I wont come it this person comes, to the financial stress of paying for it, from my fiance loosing his job, from my fiance and I arguing, from my sister nearly dying in a car accident to visiting her in the hospital for a month, from combining both families and friends from moving in together and becoming accostomed to each others ways. I can't believe how much this has been!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND NOW I AM GETTING MARRIED SO SOON!!!

 

Him and I have been through a lot of growing this year, so much has happened and I love him so much. My friends keep asking me if I am getting nervous and I am not not really at all actually. I know he is the one even when things are rough I want to wait it out with. It would be a lie to say that at times I feel the excitement is gone because of all the stress of it all. I sometimes get worried that we are loosing sight of each other with planning the wedding, him trying to find a job and family stuff. Once in a while I even wonder if he still wants to marry me. Is this normal. I guess I should be more confident in myself but with everything it is not like it was when we were "dating" I just don't want us to loose each other because we are more concerned with other things. Is this silly?