Beginning on something good....i hope

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So i have been talking to this guy i met at my bestfriends grandmothers funeral for about 8 months now, and last night is the first time we met up face to face since the funeral. We usually talk on msn or the phone since i'm away in school and he's at home working.

 

I have been reluctant to even let it go that far, just because of simple fear. I know what he wants, he wants me, but i'm not so sure about what i want or even need from him. I mean, he's not exactly good on paper, he has a past, but so does everyone. He's on the right path now, but i still think he needs some work...and thats the weird thing, he thinks so as well, and he think that I could make a better person out of him. I have no clue why he would think that. I mean, i'm human too, i make mistakes, i have problems, why would I be the beneficiary to him bettering his life?

 

Anyways, so i went to hang out with him at his house last night. It was a random thing, so we didnt have time to plan a real date. I hate going to the movies and that was the only option at the time so meeting up at his house was the best deal. Before I got there i was procrastating on weather i shouldve gone. I mean, why does he like me again? He's not a real talker, but hes not a mute either. I have trust issues with men, but i also have a woman's intuition so i tend to get them mixed up alot.

 

I'm guessing it had to have been the trust issues paranoia because when i got there and we chilled (watched a movie lol) it wasnt the bad. I was only planning to stay for about 10 mins and stayed for an hour. Maybe because he was cuter in person, i dunno lol. Anyways, now i think it could possibly turn into something. Even though the feeling isnt all around mutual yet, its better than it was before. I'm going at a snails pace with him. That way, i'll know for sure that i want to do this. I mean his family for one are the most ignorant people that i've ever come across...but he's different. Maybe i could work with it, but im not going to try an win them over thats for damn sure.

 

So here i am, in a potiental long distance relationship. We havent hugged or kissed yet....thats okay for me, im not in any rush...even though i'm sort of curious about how he does it cause he's got really nice lips lol.

 

Should i take this on?