BilliJean Posted January 17, 2009 Share Posted January 17, 2009 So...I am exhausted with the men in my life or lack there of and here I am. The funny thing about life is you can never imagine what's coming next! Not even on you drunkest of nights or in you most brilliant moments, it is utterly impossible. You make plans...God laughs (hesterically)..and puts you back in your place..the waiter, the seeker, in search of. I am 25 and completely over the BS that is suppose to be love, already! Damn I couldn't even get a marriage and divorce in lol. Now I know what your probably thinking.. So no I am not bitter, nor have i been withdrawn. Until now I've been open to possibilities. I have lots of other things going for myself but every now and then u get that feeling, or see that movie that reminds you of what your missing despite what you've got. Every now and then you miss making love and long weekends in -vs- the long steamy nights of empty fornication (yall know what I'm talking about)and of course you never want the ones who break their necks to get you,because most times they want you so bad simply because they can't have you. How do you know? Cause you gave in to the last one and now you know better lol anyway just thought I would vent a little. Feel free to respond, or chat. Link to post Share on other sites
Rebellious Posted January 17, 2009 Share Posted January 17, 2009 I think I know you Billie, tell us some more:p Link to post Share on other sites
Sw3etdev1L Posted January 17, 2009 Share Posted January 17, 2009 YOu know what I did? I stopped wanting boyfriend. I stopped caring about dating. I started wanting to just get to know men, because I stopped believing in the ideal fairy tale kind of love. I cannot even count the dates I have ever been too in my life anymore so, I guess they are not that little. I am tired and tired of dating!. I am tired of searching for a boy who I might like and who is tall, because I am 5'9 and...truth is, where I live, people are midgets. I have started to go out with some of those small people, ...cause I grew desperate. I am very picky, because I know myself...and I don't want to be with someone who is bad, or viscious. I am afraid, to get involved into a hurtful or sick relationship because my parents are divorced. I just want a tall nice, with personality man, who likes to life, in general is healthy and is full of life....In my humble opinion this is not too much, and it is so hard to find.So hard for them not to be shy, and be extroverted, get near you and ask you out...I am 24. Boys my age, are still inmature..men 30 I've gone out with have been another deal so I stopped wanting to go out with men that much older. I want to stick with the twenties. But hey, I am always open. If I have fun, if I have flick I just to out, and go out and go out...knowing that, I am just knowing them and If I don't fall in love with any of them...I am not gonna have a boyfriend, I am just gonna keep on being open because I don't want to lose the opportunity of knowing someone who I really feel something for one day. Might not be that crazy I love you story, or the fantasy foreverlasting love story either, but just laughing together, hanging out and having great sex! hehe..I must say...that's important to me. Even if he is not a king, a prince, or even a playboy, not a model, and not a very handsome tall guy, because nobody is perfect...I am just searching for the personality now. and the sexual chemistry...which I believe...is the best thing to search for..because looks fade. Link to post Share on other sites
Author BilliJean Posted January 18, 2009 Author Share Posted January 18, 2009 I think I know you Billie, tell us some more:p Really? From where or do u mean u understand lol Link to post Share on other sites
Dumbledore Posted January 18, 2009 Share Posted January 18, 2009 long steamy nights of empty fornication That must be hard to take. Link to post Share on other sites
Rebellious Posted January 19, 2009 Share Posted January 19, 2009 Really? From where or do u mean u understand lol Enjoy it now because there will come a time when you will be "transparent" to men, i.e. you'll walk around and men will not even notice you. I have more for you, but I gotta run. . . you write well Link to post Share on other sites
Author BilliJean Posted January 19, 2009 Author Share Posted January 19, 2009 Thanks. Transparent Wow that makes me wonder what the "more" was you would say...if you didn't have to run. Link to post Share on other sites
Rebellious Posted January 19, 2009 Share Posted January 19, 2009 Thanks. Transparent Wow that makes me wonder what the "more" was you would say...if you didn't have to run. That would be too much typing Billie, I'm a slow typist, I suck at Internet, maybe we'll have a chat next time I run into you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author BilliJean Posted January 19, 2009 Author Share Posted January 19, 2009 Can't wait. Sure u don't think I'm someone else? Link to post Share on other sites
Author BilliJean Posted January 19, 2009 Author Share Posted January 19, 2009 YOu know what I did? I stopped wanting boyfriend. I stopped caring about dating. I started wanting to just get to know men, because I stopped believing in the ideal fairy tale kind of love. I cannot even count the dates I have ever been too in my life anymore so, I guess they are not that little. I am tired and tired of dating!. I am tired of searching for a boy who I might like and who is tall, because I am 5'9 and...truth is, where I live, people are midgets. I have started to go out with some of those small people, ...cause I grew desperate. I am very picky, because I know myself...and I don't want to be with someone who is bad, or viscious. I am afraid, to get involved into a hurtful or sick relationship because my parents are divorced. I just want a tall nice, with personality man, who likes to life, in general is healthy and is full of life....In my humble opinion this is not too much, and it is so hard to find.So hard for them not to be shy, and be extroverted, get near you and ask you out...I am 24. Boys my age, are still inmature..men 30 I've gone out with have been another deal so I stopped wanting to go out with men that much older. I want to stick with the twenties. But hey, I am always open. If I have fun, if I have flick I just to out, and go out and go out...knowing that, I am just knowing them and If I don't fall in love with any of them...I am not gonna have a boyfriend, I am just gonna keep on being open because I don't want to lose the opportunity of knowing someone who I really feel something for one day. Might not be that crazy I love you story, or the fantasy foreverlasting love story either, but just laughing together, hanging out and having great sex! hehe..I must say...that's important to me. Even if he is not a king, a prince, or even a playboy, not a model, and not a very handsome tall guy, because nobody is perfect...I am just searching for the personality now. and the sexual chemistry...which I believe...is the best thing to search for..because looks fade. Your absolutely right! Down with love lol (until it presents itself...if it presents itself). In another post about something or another I remember saying "I'm not bitter." However, I must be in a sense because recently I decided I don't believe in that fairytale bs either! Great sex is...well great! For me its a little overrated though at this point. Its only great until the finish, and grand as the final moments are...idk, its just not quite enough. Link to post Share on other sites
Green Posted January 19, 2009 Share Posted January 19, 2009 I'm ur guys age and I recently fell in love with a girl. And well now that I found it I'm so paranoid of losing it. Like when I'm dropping her off I won't drive away untill shes getting in her place cause I'm afraid something bad could happen to her. Or when shes at the gym I'm afraid some guy will steal her away from me oh nooo. But for the most part I'm just enjoying it and its really great its making life awsome Link to post Share on other sites
Author BilliJean Posted January 20, 2009 Author Share Posted January 20, 2009 Good for you! Well at least somebodys Mc'luvin lol I must consider that possibility. Is she your first? Or your first to know? If that's not too personal...I'm so inquisitive Link to post Share on other sites
Green Posted January 20, 2009 Share Posted January 20, 2009 shes the first girl I've felt this way about for sure. Link to post Share on other sites
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