can you love and be jealous

[Confused5433]

I just found out that my ex finally got his green card. He cheated on me, our relationship eventually ended because of his legal status, and he ended up marrying the girl he cheated on me with.

 

Part of me is happy he is finally stress free and solved his problem. That situation had become a huge stress-factor in our relationship, and what eventually made me leave him. I didn't want to marry him because I didn't really trust him and he cheated on me. I know I did the right thing.

But now part of me is so jealous, upset and furious that he finally got what he wanted and left me to suffer all these years for his cheating behavior. I feel so dumb to have loved him, to have emotionally invested so much time and energy to try to help him. I think he only wanted to get his green card, by lying to me and saying that he really love me. Even when he was married he still came to me saying he made a mistake but needed to solve his situation. He had problems with his wife and was probably looking for a backup. I think by the time he got his papers, is about the time he decided to cut all ties. I can't believe I loved him so much, and worried so much for him, and believed everything he said. Sometimes I don't know if he really loved me or not.

 

And the worse part is that I still love him! How does he do it. Lie and cheat, and say 'he loves' just to get what he wants.

I have a concept of love that it's sacred, and I just wish I didn't have this attachment to him still. And just to think that he probably doesn't even care about me like I do, kills me. We had amazing times, so intense and passionate. How can that mean nothing to someone. We even cried together.

 

Now He's probably happy and ready to start his new life, and forgot all about us. And I can't do the same...I don't know how.

 

I wish I would have never fallen in love with him

[MSUE]

user hon he's just another user...move on