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Hello.

 

I am a proud 23 year old Filipino/Australian. Ethnically I am full Filipino born and raised in Australia. My family moved to California when i was 15 years old. I hated the move because to me Australia was my home sweet home and i had to leave all my friends and relatives behind.

 

New school and new faces. I was the new freshman in high school. So people asked where i was from so i told them i was from Australia. After a week in my new school i had a couple of students come to my face and say "Mr (Teacher) said you werent from Australia and that i was lying". Naturally being new i just ignored and went on with my life. Little did i realize that this will have a big impact on who i am today.

 

High school was rough for me. After that incident i started to get teased more and more. I had people come up to me and say "You're not even from Australia, you're probably just from China or something". The worst part was when a person told me "Stop telling people youre from Australia coz youre not". At first i tried to understand how they felt. Sure I'm Filipino and i look somewhat a latino/asian but what was i supposed to say?

 

The next year i met some friends and became very very close. They nicknamed me "OZ" (aussie) which was fine but heres the problem. Everytime someone calls me aussie i feel like such a liar. I can't help but feel like i am lying to people everytime they call me aussie. I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT IM NOT, but because of the past i just cant seem to get over it. Now when my friends introduce me to their friends as "Hey this is my friend Dave, and hes from Australia" I can't help but feel Oh no this person probably thinks im lying and won't believe a word i say.

 

How do i handle something like this? I never told anyone this problem because i always thought it was silly. Just some input would be nice :love:

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IMO, you shouldn't care too much about what others think about you. You should be more confident about it. Im actualy an American raised in Mexico since age 1, and it's fun to say that i'm mexican when asked. People usually expect a mexican to be riding a donkey with a sombrero and be dark skinned.

I just love the expression on their faces :lmao:

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I know for a fact that i shouldn't care and that i should be confident about it. I just can't seem to..ya know? Due to cognitive thinking ive been programmed to think that way. And i absolutely hate it.

 

Is this a silly problem?? Should i not even worry about it?

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I have a similar problem I am from Southern california but have been living in Oregon from a young age. When people don't believe me when I tell them I am from California I spit in their face as a token of proof.

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I have a similar problem I am from Southern california but have been living in Oregon from a young age. When people don't believe me when I tell them I am from California I spit in their face as a token of proof.

 

So basically just say up yours?

 

I know my problem sounds silly but im trying to better myself and if a little problem like this is bothering me than i have no chance of dealing with bigger problems that come from me. Baby steps :D

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