burnwithme Posted April 4, 2009 Share Posted April 4, 2009 Odd that all of my posts since I got on this site are about big problems, and are long intricate posts, but being the admin/mod of a fairly large internet forum myself, I don't think thats a bad thing Anyway. I am VERY, VERY against the pharmaceutical corporations. I dont take cough medicine, aspirin, ibuprofen, etc etc. They are just MASSIVE drug dealers... Which is kinda funny, because i do [natural] drugs myself. Anyway. Continuing. The last year has been extremely rough. My mother tried committing suicide in front of me, i wrestled with my [now ex] girlfriend to keep her from downing a bottle of sleeping pills, we broke up, I was in the most depressed and painful state i had EVER felt in my entire life, thought very hard about suicide myself, my childhood dog died, one of my best friends died this summer, i got arrested the first time, etc etc. So having talked with my mom, and some other people, it appears that i have probably been swinging in and out of depression for quite some time, and not exactly fully coming out of it. I'm in college, but I don't know what to major in. The only thing, as far as i know right now, that i've had a passion in my whole life, is driving. I love cars, but i don't want to be a mechanic or anything. I can't decide on a career choice... I've literally considered like... everything. Graphic designer, multimedia designer, computer programmer, astronomer, chef, i dunno. You think of it, i've probably considered it. But i just can't hold my passion in anything for long enough. For anywhere between a couple days to a couple months, I'll get really into something.. for example, most recently i was really into programming. i tried teaching myself to program for about a week, then just lost interest... Meh. So, would antidepressants really help me that much, help me find a direction in my life? The reason my mom tried killing herself is that she waned off her antideps and went straight downhill... Since we're biologically related, I don't want that to happen to me. I would, as far as i know, rather live my life like it is now, than have to pay money to those ****ing corporations and be constantly monetarily "addicted" to them, because waning off my meds would cause me to crash like that. So... ideas? Link to post Share on other sites
flash582 Posted April 4, 2009 Share Posted April 4, 2009 I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression when I was 39, and had probably had it for years, but 39 was the age I stopped drinking, etc. for the most part, and I wasn't masking the problem any longer. It sounds as if you've been self medicating for quite a while. You need to seriously stop taking any natural supplements before you can be diagnosed in one way or another. It will take 3 weeks or so before your body chemistry equalizes after you stop. And I would recommend that you seek the advice of a really good doctor who has a lot of experience with depression .. anti-depressants have been prescribed like valium was prescribed in the 60's. Not all anti-depressants are created equal, either. I take welbutrin, which is also used to quit smoking. It has an "upper" effect and works on your brain chemistry much differently than the Prozac family of drugs. Only a good Doctor can determine what is right for you. Do NOT try to self-diagnose this ailment. If your mom has depression, then you may have it as well, as it does tend to run in the family. See a Doctor. Link to post Share on other sites
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