mental mother?

[Sarabell21]

I am 22 yrs old and my whole life ive been mentally and physically abused by my mother. My dad is one of those men who say, "well, u kno how ur mother is" and never stands up for me or himself. i have a little brother, who has been given everything hes ever wanted and he has a rough relationship with my mom also, but she doesnt say and do the things to him that she does me. my brothers just as violent with her as she is me so she doesnt treat him that way..its gotten worse over the years and now im moved out and married with a daughter of my own and im noticing a lot of crazy things my mom does even more and im starting to wonder about skitzophrenia or demensia. when someone tells her something about anything, when she retells it, shes totally twisted the story and added things and in her head she truly believes it. you cant make her understand differently. she asks us stuff over and over again and doesnt realize it. We got into it today over some things she told my dad about me that werent even true, but again in her head she believes it. she came over and i had a few pairs of shoes in the living room floor that i was selling on ebay, then when she went back home she told my dad that my house was so filthy that she couldnt stand to stay in the house.lol daddy tells me everyday abou tthe crazy things my mom does and he says nothing about it. if i have a diff opinion than momma she gets very mentally abusive towards me..she tells me im lazy and mentally weak....and my god, when i eas lookin for a job she tried to get me one with her and she said she described me as sum hottie to her boss, and then in the next breath she told me i needed to quit eating!!! the whole time i was pregnant i was alone, she would give me the craziest advice like weed wont hurt the baby and i should watch my weight, i lost 30lbs when i first got preg cuzz i was sooo sick and vomited all the time. All the advice from her was off the wall crazy, i can only humor her and thank god that i knew better. now that my daughters born, she'll talk about someone like a dog and say theyre ugly and then turn right around and say, oh, that baby looks just like them..ive lost sleep so many nights wondering whats wrong with my moma...my daughter was jsut a month or 2 old and she wanted me to put suckers in her mouth and reg food.,...i kno mom wasnt like that when we were babies or we wouldnt b here...is anyone else ever been through this crap? when i dont put adult foo din my kids mouth or do anything else crazy my mom wants she hits me and says terrible things to me. i cant trust her to keep my daughter or trust my dad to stop my mom when that stuffs going on...i love my mother, but she my worst enemie sometimes. She acts like theres ALWAYS somekind of conspiracy going on...when i talk to my friends when we're in public, shes hateful to them and when we leave she has nothing good to say. im just at my wits end. when i say anything to moma about how she made me feel it sets off an uproar there and my dad and brother suffer from it because they have to live wiht her...i constanly feel guilty about things i have no control over. i was in therapy when i was younger and it made me so happy to finally understand that everything wasnt my fault but as soon as the session was over my mom made out like i was weak minded for going...she'll still say hateful things to me about my parenting skills, weight or whatever she can and when i tell her it made me feel like crap, she makes it ok in her head by saying " it jsut hurt ur feelings cuzz ur a p**** and u cant handle anything!" Someone plz telll me something!!! THANKS

[Alex_M]

I would like to reply but I really can't read that block of text.

 

Take a deep breath and try writing it again?

[Sarabell21]

Wow, lol, is it really that bad, i was kinda distraught when i wrote it all. sorry-