1 year later after painful split

[nopainnogain]

I Havent posted here in a while. Hope everyone is doing good. It has been one year since my ex g/f of 7 years and I split. Basically became a toxic relationship over night. I remember that day like yesterday .When our R started going downhill. Well,probably started b4 that 4 her hence her scandelous ways.But that day for me was 5-9-06 . The day i found out she was having a emotional/physical (allegedly) affair with my supposed best friend. I ditched the friend and stuck with her . Big mistake,but in hindsight its the reason i am stronger and wiser . The roller coaster dragged on for 2 more years until finally we parted ways 4-02-08. That was a sad day for me. Cliche i know,but everything happens for a reason. Now that i look back at that day i can smile and look back and realize how weak and lost i was. I am not much of a typer but i just to let ppl know that are fresh off a break up is MAINTAIN N/C ,Stick with N/C, exrcise,be active,dont have any down time.Fill up your schedule even with mundane stuff.

 

For me, what really helped me was selling a lot of stuff on ebay when not working. opened a store and became a power seller. Made me feel important,confidence came back. What ever works for you ,just do it!

[BackonTrack2]

glad to see your doing better.

i'm doing better myself, once enough time had passed and i hadn't seen her or heard from her, i think the spell wore off.

 

it feels funny even saying I was hurt or in pain etc, as it was all emmotionally, none of it was real and all was self-inflicting.

 

i feel stupid now that i think about it to have thrown so much away for a female, a cheating female at that.....

 

i know i won't even remember her in the future, its starting to fade, there is still one peace left though, sort of like un finished business. i hope that peace goes away, i don't know if it will until i see her and get her off this pedestal i have in my head.

 

anyway what helped me allot was this new girl.