BackonTrack2 Posted May 11, 2009 Share Posted May 11, 2009 Hello All, This is really strange. I just awoke from a dream I had with my EX of like 2 years ago. In the dream, she was on drugs and looked ill and not cared for. It is surprising, because I have not had a dream with her in for-ever. When I awoke, I just said to myslf "Thats so sad, she made a bad decision and now she's suffering" and I wrote it off. About 5 minutes later, I got to thinking and told myself "oh no, i hope the dream wasn't factual" Then I went on my marry way... The thing is, because of how it ended "Her cheating and me going mad", I cannot contact her so as of right now and throughout life, I will maintain NC Maybe this is my way of closing the chapter. As I re-read my post, espically that last paragraph, I tell myself "Who Cares" and its odd, because thats how I feel. Sort of like she deserve(s) everything coming to her and if that is the case, it means I no longer care which is a good sign of me moving on but yet I am here making this post. This is confusing, I never thought in life I would be worried about someone I am not suppose to worry about and worried about someone whom I cannot contact. At the same time, its like it doesn't even matter, that female is a stranger, no more goodness left in my heart for her. Its funny because thats the same girl I wanted to marry, so conflicting. Eitherway NC 13 months and still holding :-). On that same note, I don't want to be with her again but atleast know how she's doing, like if she is OK. Is that ODD of me? She totally disappeared off the map since our split. What am I talking about? She's OK and happy and living life and does not remember :-). She's on top of the world :-). Yeah!!, she's working and getting money and having FUN... Yep thats what I am telling myself...... Strange, a small part of me wonders if that's actually true.... Yep thats TRUE, she's DOING 100% OK :-) Link to post Share on other sites
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