SeeingClearer Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 This is a strange situation.. A situation of regret, remorse and denial. 6 months ago I split up with my girlfriend of 3 years, it was the most horrible thing I've ever had to do. I had my reasons, and at the time I thought it was the right thing to do. The next day, my mother declared she was unhappy and left my dad, not good times for me lol. I am 20 years old, level headed and ambitious but I have to admit that my mum leaving my dad was totally out of the blue, no one saw it coming, so yes it was a hard few months after that. My girlfriend and I stayed in very good contact as we were always very open and close with each other anyway.. She didn't handle the break up well at all, she begged me back for about 3 months after, leading up to christmas. During this time with everything that had happened to me, I indulged in drugs and alcohol, I am NOT a loose cannon nor a devil child, lol, like I said very level headed and ambitious so this part of my life was just an answer to my problems, it was a mistake and now I admit that. Here's where the problems start.. After christmas my girlfriend and I still keep in very good contact and start sleeping with each other again, still good mates but still I didn't want her back, oh I forgot the most important part of this story, during my 'hic up' in my life I began sleeping with my friend's ex-girlfriend! Like I said I wasn't thinking straight through this period.. Anyway; about 2 months ago me and my ex started getting along really well, only for me to find out that she had been sleeping with someone else for about 6 weeks, this was the slap in my face that made me realise that she was actually what I wanted in my life, but it seemed that I had left everything too late! She found out about my very in-frequent and recreational use of drugs and basically flipped her ****, she's from a very well presented family and she wasn't very happy about it at all. I then admitted to her about the woman I had been sleeping with and she seemed ok. All until I txt her one night saying that I was with this other girl in her hot tub, the all of a sudden she says she still loves me etc etc... Bearing in mind that 6 weeks before I asked her back and she said no because she had moved on etc.. So.... the last month; we have been hanging out loads, have both stopped seeing other people and are getting on just like we did when we first met.. yet still there's a problem, she does NOT trust me, not one bit. Here's a txt she sent me about 3 days ago: "oh darling I love you so much I don't wanna stop seeing you but how do I know you won't go back to how you were?" How you were... refering to the drugs and the sleeping with my mates ex-girlfriend, which is all a huge secret btw.. All I think about is my ex, and my stupid mistakes; breaking up with her, drugs, alcohol, messing her around, ignoring her to get on with my studies, ignoring her to be with friends. When all along I should have treated her how she should be treated, she still loves me, I still love her... But how on earth do I earn her trust back???? I have changed, I have admitted all my mistakes and have completely changed my life around, I'm about to graduate from UNI with honours degrees and have a wonderful life, friends and family, but something is missing. My question... Can I ever get her trust back? What do you think? Thankyou lots for reading... Link to post Share on other sites
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