Totally Confused and Heartbroken

[ntheshado]

I don't even know where to begin. Ok, short version. I live with 2 roommates, until about a month ago, I was in relationships with both. One has been my g/f for over 4 years, the other relationship started about 6 months ago but we have been friends for over 5 years. She lived with us for over a year now.

 

G/F "A" and I have lived together for over 3 years, we had a great/terrible relationship. There were times it was the best thing ever and times we almost couldn't resist killing eachother, pretty typical. We had a couple problems though that were causing great distress, her kid and sex. She has a 14 year old. She wanted me to help her parent but anytimt I did she underminded me and made me look like a real jerk to the kid.

 

Sex, I've never really liked sex. We had a decent sex life as far as it went but it was very very rare. She wanted a lot more then I did. G/F "B" and I have been close for a long time but when she seen how bad things were between "A" and I, she admitted that she was in love with me and had been for some time. Nothing happened for quite a while, we both respected "A" too much. But as things do, eventually something did happen. It was great. I had found everything that was missing in my other relationship.

 

Together, they made the perfect woman. Well, as you can expect, they really didn't favor sharing so all everything fell apart. G/F "B" brought someone else home one night to make me jealous because she didn't think I cared as much as I should b/c I wouldn't leave "A". It worked, I got very very jealous.

 

Now, she is with that someone else and they are here every night and almost evey waking hour. So it definately gets rubbed in my face a lot. Problem is, "B" treats me like I'm nothing now, she rarely speaks to me unless she wants something and I miss her more than anyone can imagine, she was my best friend until all this happened and now I'm nothing to her. I have to sit and watch her with her new love all the time. I did love her, probably more that I've ever loved anyone or so it seemed.

 

I didn't leave "A" for several reasons. I'm not that insensative, I was thinking of the kid, I wanted everything to happen peacefully, I didn't want anyone to hurt anymore than they had to. It was obvious we were on the road to the end anyway so I asked "B" to wait it out until that happened and then we could be totally together with no guilt. She got tired of waiting. Now I live with both of them still and I still love both of them and "A" wants to keep me and we have talked a lot and worked on a lot of things and we are better then we ever were but I can't get over "B".

 

"A" is totally understanding now about the whole thing and has been a great support and would even let me have "B" too but "B" doesnt know I exist anymore. Yet I miss her so much I can't even seem to function. How do I win her heart back? Her new fling is very young and kisses the ground she walks on and will do anything for her. I know "B" doesn't sound very nice but I swear she's a wonderful person and my heart is bleeding all over because of her. What do I do?

[MIKEY]

honestly I think you need to get a life. You come here with a problem and yet oyu are playing two women who are roomates.....they both should drop you!