Kranja Posted October 29, 2003 Share Posted October 29, 2003 Its been 7 years since I went out with her.And I have known her for 7 years and soild friendship with her parents to this day. I went to high school with her went out for like 5 months and she broke up with me. We did love each other so much and enjoyed each other. I wanted to go to school in Colorado and I was debating to go out there to get a good career. In the meanwhile she decided to go to school out there but in a different city. 1 year rolls by she is out there and I finally decided to go out there for school. This made it all worse I have been suffering for 7 years and I could not cope with the idea of not being with her so I started smoking more weed to take care of the pain. I said to her after we broke up that I would never love anyone else. And I kept true to that for 7 years and now I am struggling with depression and social anxiety disorder. I have been here for 2 years and I'm leaving this **** hole. I cant leave the thought of being with her again. Our friendship has been good but now I cant see her because of the personal pain I'm going through. I dont show it to her or her parents they dont know what is going on.. I want to confront her and tell her but my disorder does not allow me to. I cant sleep or consintrate. WHAT SHOULD I DO? Link to post Share on other sites
Girlinterrupted Posted October 29, 2003 Share Posted October 29, 2003 This sounds really serious, have you gotten any medication for your anxiaty and depression? If not you should, my mother suffers from this and she has med's she takes that really help out a lot. Also just a note: Weed is a downer, it only distracts you from you true issues temporaly and in the long run it just makes you more depressed, down and even more anxious. Believe me I smoked all through the begining of my break up and I didn't get better untill I quite smoking weed and got out the house and out there trying to meet new people and doing things. Sorrounding your self with freinds also is a huge help. Talk about it all you can too, this is great here, posting your problem and getting advice and feedback is a great way to start. I started my breakup recovery here too and getting advice from all kinds of people helped also reading peoples post helped because I saw that I wasn't the only one going through this. I don't think that telling her about this disorder would help anything unless you deal with it first your self, you need to get your self back in gear first. Find ways to make your self active again, meet new people, get out more often. Sorround your self with more positive things, there is no way you can approach her with this down and out type of attitude for a few reasons: 1. She will feel bad for you, you don't want to be pittied. 2. She will feel guilty. 3. It's unappealing and unattrative. Now you didn't mention how she feels about you, I take she only wants to be freinds. Does she know that your still into her, that you still love her? If you have not spoken with her regarding this "love" you feel for her and she is completely unaware of your true feelings then maybe you should let her know that you still have a lot of strong feelings for her (more than freindship). Things to consider before speaking letting her know: Is she involved with anyone? Has she already let you know that she only want's to be friends or how she feels about you? How will you feel if she does not feel the same, can you handle that? Will it change your freindship? Well I hope all works for you and again please concentrate on getting your self better first. Link to post Share on other sites
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