Empty.

[tooinlove]

I hate this empty feeling. I'm not the same anymore. I've only started my LDR on Friday and it's sooo hard. I never imagined it being this difficult and painful. I don't even want to do the things we used to do together because it makes it even worse. I'm trying to stay away from things that remind me of him because it just makes me break down and cry because I miss him so much. Is it always going to be like this or will it get better in time? Sometimes I think it would be easier just to let go, but I can't do that. I love him too much. :'( I'm going to see him in 1 month and we plan to see each other once every month after that, but I'm afraid that we'll be busy with work or school or something. And I'm afraid that during those times, we could drift apart and he could find someone else... I know I probably sound crazy, but it's how I feel. I need to put more trust in him. Also, I want to talk to him as much as possible, but he is more chill about it and doesn't think we need to talk so much although we do talk twice a day. I know he loves me and misses me and he says it is hard for him too, but I hate how it seems like it's not affecting him as much as it's affecting me. Is anyone in the same position and can anyone help me in any way by giving me advice or something??