xpaperxcutx Posted June 18, 2009 Share Posted June 18, 2009 Ever since my fiasco with Artist Guy, I've been on a dating break. I avoided anyone and everyone trying to get close to me and focused all my attention on running and going to the gym. I locked myself in my own little world, and while everyday seemed like a repetition ( gym in the morning, and running at night) I felt more than secluded. But there are certain people that I can't really ignore, such as my friends, and while we don't see each other face to face, they somehow still try to contact me. There are two people in particular who I see no more than friends, but they decided to confess that they like me. One, Musician guy, who I hung out with once, told me that he wanted things to develop more but knew that my heart was somewhere else, decided that he will be happy to have me as a friend. Then there's Dan, whom I've known for almost half a year online, decided to tell me ( honestly in his words) that he fell for me from the very start. I was shocked. I have so many people confessing that they like me and want to get to know me better. While it's flattering, I just don't know how I can bring myself to reciprocate. I told them I wasn't relationship material and left it at because it was the simple truth. I can't even start a healthy relationship with someone I like without them telling me that things were going nowhere, so how can I expect to start anything new with anyone else? I haven't let go of Artist guy, and the one month mark of NC ( with a drunken contact a few weeks back) is approaching. I haven't learned to detach from him mentally, and in contrast, I've somehow became completely detached from other people. I feel like such a hopeless case. Link to post Share on other sites
boogieboy Posted June 18, 2009 Share Posted June 18, 2009 Sounds to me like you just need to not pick up the phone when the guys that like you call. Unless you like the attention. Of course you know if youre not over artist guy yet you cant focus on anyone new. So stop taking the calls! Link to post Share on other sites
Author xpaperxcutx Posted June 18, 2009 Author Share Posted June 18, 2009 Sounds to me like you just need to not pick up the phone when the guys that like you call. Unless you like the attention. Of course you know if youre not over artist guy yet you cant focus on anyone new. So stop taking the calls! I don't like the attention, at least not the kind of attention that puts me in an awkward position. Musician guy called me a couple of times, and not once have I picked up the phone. I simply avoided him. He left me so many messages, and when we finally cleared the air ( online), he had simply known I wasn't interested in him that way, but decided that being friends was the best way to go about things. Dan confessed when we were chatting online, and it came as a shock to me because I honestly wasn't expecting it. He was an online buddy I had met half a year ago, and we get along great simply because we just talk. And i don't take the calls at all. I can't even if I wanted to. I decided to let my phone's prepaid minute run out, so now I can't call or receive calls. None of them have my home phone, so that does give me a peace of mind. Link to post Share on other sites
Ariadne Posted June 18, 2009 Share Posted June 18, 2009 Oh... I broke up with this guy like a week ago and there are two guys chasing after me and I don't think I can love them! Link to post Share on other sites
Author xpaperxcutx Posted June 18, 2009 Author Share Posted June 18, 2009 Oh... I broke up with this guy like a week ago and there are two guys chasing after me and I don't think I can love them! Lol A, it's not even about loving them, which I know there won't be a possibility of that happening. It's just that I can't even bring myself to want to date them casually. Or anyone else for that matter. I'm a recluse and despite hating myself for shutting people out, I'm just so much comfortable this way. Link to post Share on other sites
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