EmptyPromises Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 Ive had depression and anxiety since I was 15. Ive been on all kinds of antidpressants, they just always made me feel worse or not myself, like i was a zombie who couldnt laugh.i didnt care about anything esp school. I did have a high self esteem and wasnt scared to talk to people. i found myself having suicidal thoughts when i got depressed. 6 months ago I took myself off them, and started doing really well in school. I lost my confidence, I get upset very easily, I find myself being so insecure i hate looking at people in the eye. i broke up wtih my boyfriend abotu a month and ahalf ago. after saying he wanted to work things out, hes jsut acting liek he doesnt care. i had a breakdown last night and cried for abotu four hours, laid in my bed, sat on the shower floor crying as i showered. this isnt normal.im at work right now and feel like i coul dburst into tears. and i really need to get my self respect back and dignity so that i stop trying to get back with someone that doesnt respect me. i also want to start loving myself and stop thinking the world sucks. is anyone on any good antidpressants? im also taking ativan and buspar and seroquel for sleep. im just so miserable i really think i should go back on something Link to post Share on other sites
Gus Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 Get yourself to a medical doctor now that has experience with antidepressants. You need a complete medical check up including blood work before being prescribed an RX for your issues. A doctor that hands you an RX for an antidepressant without checking you out first is a quack and unfortunetly there are tons of them out there. A doctor that prescribes the proper antidepressant for someone should be having that person come back in every month for awhile to be sure it's the right drug and the right dosage. I went to my family doctor back in 2005 and after about 5 minutes in her office walked out w/ RX's for Zoloft, Buspar and Xanax. I was a walking zombie until I did some research on my own. I found out that my diet was a main contributor to my issues and that I can control my own frame of mind. When I wake up every morning I can choose to be miserable or I can choose to appreciate what I have and be happy. Of course this isn't the case w/ everyone. A lot of people DO have physical and / or mental issues that cause depression. My S/O had a severe closed head injury 20 years ago and was diagnosed as high functioning bi-polar. He had a complete medical workup done and then went thru a lot of trial and error w/ RX's. And he has follow-up appointments every month to make sure he's still doing okay and the doctor does a complete blood work up on him every 6 months to make sure there aren't any adverse effects on his liver or any other issues. I'd contact you local MHMR - they can refer someone who is well versed in depression - a professional that can help you much more than a GP. Link to post Share on other sites
carhill Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 Whoa, that's some pretty strong stuff, not to mention a pretty interesting cocktail. Is there one doctor managing this, hopefully a psychiatrist? You gotta be real careful with cocktails. I used all three on my mom when she was in the earlier stages of psychosis. Seroquel was the most flexible, in that I could up or down-dose PRN without serious side effects. Ativan was the toughest. Don't go off of that without a reverse titration schedule. IMO, no one here could suggest adding to the mix or what to substitute. Personally, if I were handling care, I'd back everything off slowly and observe over a month to six weeks, then try a combination of psychotherapy and one med, TBD as a result of the psychometric analysis. I've found transient anxiety can be handled with cognitive therapy, and have managed my own in that way. No meds. Also, managing diet and lifestyle has been helpful. Thyroid function and blood glucose levels bear scrutiny. Remember, your body and brain are big chemical factories. Many ways to adjust and affect those factories. Better to have a competent engineer in charge (e.g. doctor). If you're not on a health/psych forum, google them and join one. I've found them to be really helpful just from reading other people's experiences. You're not alone Link to post Share on other sites
Ilovehim Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 I never took anti-depressents but I'm starting to think I should. Maybe a doctor would be best if you tell him/her everything you're feeling? Link to post Share on other sites
Meaplus3 Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 Well the best thing for you to do is to see your MD first to rule out a possible physical cause for your symptoms. Once you know that your in the clear and your health is good, then you should talk to your doc about the types of meds on the market and which ones would be the best for treating your symptoms. All med's will have some side effects. With SSRI's the trick is to fight through them.. if you can. It takes about 4 weeks to see a difference. Now your other option would be to try and manage your Anxeity through CBT.. with a good therapist. Or you could take the combo of meds and therapy. It all depends on YOU as we are all unique and repsond in our own way. Best of luck. Keep your chin up.. I feel for ya. Mea:) Link to post Share on other sites
quankanne Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 you also need to understand that your body is highly unique, and what may work for one person can be poison for another. I take Wellbutrin, it was the first thing my doctor prescribed, and it worked like magic ... for me. For my best friend (and her brother, incidentally), it just worsened the symptoms. It took her awhile, but she finally found the "right match" and is doing well on her meds. Another friend, who I've known for a long, long time, said it was only recently that they found a good match for her, and she'd been on anti-biotics for 20-plus years! so make sure your doctor does blood work, and that you faithfully report any responses or reactions you have. They say it takes at least two weeks for a medication like that to "take," but your body will let you know when it's just not working. Which it's why it's best to be under a psychiatrist's care if you've got serious issues with depression – he's the best one to know what will work, and will hopefully constantly monitor your health. Just be sure this person is someone you feel comfortable with, who LISTENS to you and looks at your lifestyle, and not just hands you a piece of paper with the best guess! Link to post Share on other sites
carhill Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 she'd been on antibiotics for 20-plus yearsWhoa, hard to imagine what's going to happen when she really needs an antibiotic. Are you sure you didn't mean anti-psychotic? Like quetiapine/olanzapine, etc...? Great advice.... when you've seen one psych patient, you've seen one psych patient. Everyone is unique and different. Yeah, I would never, even for one moment, consider a GP for depression/anxiety issues. They're great for routine medical triage and referrals. Psychiatrist/psychologist/neuropsychometrist is the way to go, IMO.... OP, do you have a close friend or family member you can disclose to? Sometimes, a team approach is best, having support in your efforts to engage the right people. HIPAA prevents active discourse, but that person can be there for you as a check/balance and for emotional support. Invaluable, IME. Good luck! Link to post Share on other sites
Author EmptyPromises Posted June 23, 2009 Author Share Posted June 23, 2009 i have contacted my MD. im at work and asked if i could email her. she hasnt gotten back to me. Link to post Share on other sites
quankanne Posted June 23, 2009 Share Posted June 23, 2009 Whoa, hard to imagine what's going to happen when she really needs an antibiotic. Are you sure you didn't mean anti-psychotic? Like quetiapine/olanzapine, etc...? lol ... my bad – meant to say anti-depressants, not sure where THAT one came from! Link to post Share on other sites
Author EmptyPromises Posted June 23, 2009 Author Share Posted June 23, 2009 Whoa, hard to imagine what's going to happen when she really needs an antibiotic. Are you sure you didn't mean anti-psychotic? Like quetiapine/olanzapine, etc...? lol ... my bad – meant to say anti-depressants, not sure where THAT one came from! i dont understand ? Link to post Share on other sites
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