I feel so Lost

[DaLionz]

I still have feelings for my ex, we got together spring break of 02 and broke up 8 months later. It went great when we were together, she was the first one to say I love you and all that. I've had alot of stuff go on in my life that year, parents divorcing, grandma and a friend dying, and it seemed like she was all i had. I used to never drink or hardly party when i was with her i was strictly committed to football and soccer. Then we broke up a couple of times and got back togheter you know how it goes. Then we got in a bad fight cause my ex gf, which is my bestfriends sister called me and told me to break her up with her bf. She got mad and was saying she didnt know if she can trust me anymore and blah blah and pretty much said i cheated on her. Then a week after we broke up, my bestfriend lives down the street from her and says he seen my worst enemies car outside her house, so i call her and ask her why hes there and stuff then i hear people saying that they had sex and stuff, and i ask her and she swears they didnt. But, everyone tells me they did. I still dont know the truth. I never had been in a situation like this before, I never felt like this about anyone before. I know everyone says follow your heart and it will all be ok. I've had a couple of gfs since her and broke up wtih them cause it just wasnt the same, and cause i still had feelings for her. I really care about her, and would do anything to get her back in my life. She made me really happy, and kept me up when i was down, but when we broke up for the last time, i went back to where i was or maybe worse before i got with her. Now, i party all the time and drink more than i ever used to. Im not an alcoholic i wont drink during the week or anything. But, I was just one of them people that didnt do that stuff. On an earlier post i wrote about how we were at a concert and i kept seeing her looking atme the whole night then i ended up talking toher about everything and she told me to call her sometime so we can talk more, but i havent called yet im scared. Im scared of her, i really miss her, but its hard for me to talk to her. I need to know if i should follow my heart cause my heart tells me me and her will be together again or do i move on, which is really hard to do, when you have feelings for someone like that.

[Dalionz]

???????

[DonTomaso]

Why are you scared of her? Because of what she might say?

 

If you honestly think she will take you back, and that would make you happy, then you should try to get her back. If you don't think she will take you back for whatever reason, I suggest you move on.