Feeling so hopeless

[kandi13]

Ok well this is how it went down. I met a guy named Brad through my ex boyfriend. Brad was his cousin. Well Brad and I first started talkin on the phone it was like a blind date well for a few days we talked eevrynight and he finally asked me out. I said yea......We still had no clue on what we looked like but he was sweet and I could see myself with him for some reason. Well for awhile we just talked and finally we made a date to meet. It was at the mall, brad was suppose to go with his 2 cuzins to see me. Well I met him and I didnt really feel anything until later that night we were huggin and holdin each other....i seriously liked him alot. He liked me alot too. So we continued goin out and then 1 day i decided to end it not cuz i didnt like him but cuz I was bein stubborn with him and wanted to see what would happen. I did and he was so sad he begged me to get back with him and I finally say yes a few days later. So we go out again it was good......But I thought he didnt like me and all so i dump him again why cuz im so stupid. His cuzin my ex wanted me to get back with him they all begged me too and I finally say yea.....so we go out and all and every time I dumped him i started loving him more I know weird

 

So one night I see him and we talked and he kissed me and it was good...i loved him but I wanted attention that night so i dump him again....He cried for me back, and I do then we start goin oout again for about a week and he thought I was cheatin on him so he dumped me I was so sad cuz I was in love with him now and i wasnt gonna dump him this time......He needed time he told me and asks me out 5 days later I say yea and we go out 4 about a week or 2. I was seriously in love with him now.......Well I was suppose to see him last saturday but he lied to me and talked about me behind my back so i dumped him and he said he didnt care...I was ehartbroken.....I hated him for that and I know he should hate me 4 what I did 2 him and should never give me another chance....But I feel so hopeless. Now hes like playin with my mind sayin he loves me and still wants me and all this other crap....and he keeps sayin I love u...and he dont know how bad it hurts when hes leadin me on cuz he said me and him are done goin out....and I feel like all this pressure is on my shoulders like I know we wont go back out cuz his cuzins now hate me and the only way id see him is with his cousins but that wont happen cuz his cuzins want brad to have nuttin to dow ith me...and I just feel like dying please dont say i deserve it people make mistakes and I learned my lesson....I want him back so bad....Id do anything for him....I wish he only knew. How could he go from oh I love u so much to oh well i still love u but dont wanna be with u anymore....I hate gettin hurt like this and feel like givin up on love.....please tell me what i should say to brad.....Hes all I can think about and its driving me insane....thx

[innocent]

How old are you?

[ThisGirlNameKD]

People have breaking points, and he seem to have reached his. You've went back to him several times only to dump him again, so he probably doesn't have much faith or trust in you. Sort of like the boy who cried wolf...when you're finally serious people don't believe, so if you've learn from mistake like you say you have, respect his wishes and let him be. I think the reason you kept dumping him was because you wanted him to really want you back so much that he would go to any lengths to have you....and that's why you liked him more.....because he came back for you. I don't know if you've been rejected in the past and do this to dumping thing to assure yourself if you're really wanted or not, but I don't have to tell you that it doesn't work. You've lived and now you've learned.