redant Posted July 13, 2009 Share Posted July 13, 2009 I've dealt with this forever. I find things to feel bad about. I'm relatively smart and successful. Many years ago in High School I had a tough time at home and then felt very alone at school. There are so many people who enjoyed their times in HS have lots of friends etc. I tend to wonder why was or am I different why did I not get along so well. At the end I felt quite alone from my peers and at graduation did not say goodbye to everyone or did not have a big group of friends. Anyway that was then. I'm happier now but at times I feel something is wrong or diff about me. I carry a burden. I guess alot of people do. I just want to be free. Seems hard for me to understand or to stop feeling like a failure. Link to post Share on other sites
patcha Posted July 13, 2009 Share Posted July 13, 2009 Right on. I feel the same way and have all my life. I know a lot of people felt jealous of me while I was growing up, because it looked like I had it all. Now I've just given up. I don't even know what to do anymore. Just going through the motions. There are occasional happy moments but not too many. Anyway, that's me. I'll see what kind of comments you get. Link to post Share on other sites
Author redant Posted July 13, 2009 Author Share Posted July 13, 2009 I wouldn't say I'm not happy. I would just like to feel more free or let up on myself somehow but I'm afraid to or too ashamed. We are complicated. I am thanful for many things. Link to post Share on other sites
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