Stupid insecurities with partner of 6 years

[jojo0]

Hi, I feel a bit stupid for writing this but anyway....

 

I am 27 and have 2 children (a 2 year old and a 11 month old) with my partner of 6 years.

I have always been a little insecure about the way I look as I am basically flat chested, but lately I am becoming more insecure about myself and our relationship because I have recently found out that he prefers brunettes with curvy bodies and big boobs. Ha, and here I am - blonde with an athletic figure and no boobs to speak of.

 

We were discussing celebrities and he was talking to his friend saying that Catherine Zeta Jones, Salma Hyeck and Megan Gale were all really hot. Which ok...they are ....but I am the complete opposite to them. So, I asked his family in a round about way and I found out that I was the first blonde 'skinny' girl that he had been with - all of his other girlfriends were brunette, curvy and booby.

 

Now I'm just a little confused and also feel extremely unattractive when we are around sexy brunettes. I asked him about it and asked why he had gone for me when I wasn't really his type and he just shrugged and said - 'I don't know..I was just attracted to you'.

 

I'm starting to feel like crap over it because I am starting to obsess over the whole thing and I do know I am being stupid. He is with me for a reason and I know he loves me but I simply don't understand the whole 'type' thing. I guess I have always been attracted to tall,athletic with dark hair and dark eyes men and that is what my partner is.....

 

I don't know ....I would just like some thoughts or an explanation even on if this is normal for guys to go completely a -wall on their usual type of girl, and go for the complete opposite!

 

The thing I am thinking at the moment (because I heard that a couple of his past girlfriends cheated on him) is that maybe he thinks that I am 'safe' or something along those lines because I am not as attractive as the curvy brunnettes in his eyes.....

 

As a side point - I don't think I am ugly in normal circumstances but I do feel inadequate and non descript next to curvy women with yes brown hair.

 

And yes, I have dyed my hair brown once to see how it went but the feed back from my partner was that he preferred me with blonde hair.