levharius Posted July 24, 2009 Share Posted July 24, 2009 u told me to come here and you posted on my forum first im sorry. im not feeding you excuses... i want to make you happy. i want us to be a complete family.. we can work out and i am going do to everything within my power and do it. i love you shar. nothing like this will ever happen again, im disgusted with myself for doing what i did. i am going to be faithful to you til the day i die in bed laying next to you. im not afraid anymore.. plz, let me show you. Link to post Share on other sites
sxyNYCcpl Posted July 24, 2009 Share Posted July 24, 2009 At the risk of butting into this interesting, if questionablely public brouhaha, I stand by what I said to you last night lev. You are bisexual. You need to come to terms with that. Apparently, you were raised to believe that sexual contact between men is disgusting, but you will never be able to love yourself fully until you get over it, and accept who you are. Only once that is accomplished can you guys renegotiate the terms of your relationship in whatever way makes you both happy. Shar has expressed a willingness to let you explore that side of you, and the desire to walk down that road holding your hand. Some here will opine that absolute sexual monogamy is required for a successful marriage, but I know better. You are hurting, and understandably so, but you will never find true happiness, with shar or with anyone else, until you realize that denial ain't just a river in Egypt and come to grips with your true self. Disgust at being bi will not change the fact that you are. It will merely reinforce the self hatred. I wish you both the best of luck. Link to post Share on other sites
levharius Posted July 24, 2009 Share Posted July 24, 2009 wow u are absolutly right. my family is very religious especially my mom and grandma. they did not agree with that lifestyle so i was practicly forced to hide it from family. thats part of where my shell came from. i am going to something that is like therapy on monday and until then, i am going to do alot of thinking and accepting of myself. millioms of people are happy with who they are, why shouldnt i.. thank you for your insight, i know that before i leave school to go home and see my family, i will be a much much better person. and i will be able to accept who i am. time i take charge of my life. Link to post Share on other sites
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