"This Is For the Girls"

[love_fool]

My friend sent me this on March 16th, the night when my ex and I first broke up. Reading this again made me realize that I am not alone, that there are girls who fell for the same things I did. Here it is..

 

"Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed.

The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.

Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I don't know what I want", one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you.

 

We deserve something, and this is our tribute.

 

Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for awhile. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

 

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

 

Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today.

The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if".

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation.

The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us.

When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it.

 

This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

 

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time."

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.

This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

 

Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them.

Here's for the time that he broke your heart again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.

 

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off.

When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.

Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like crap, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

 

This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again. "

[moo]

beautiful, wonderful, thank you

[lizzylizliz]

That was great. Thank you very much. It nearly brought me to tears. I wrote something yesterday, when I was trying to reason with myself as to why my ex was angry that I've cut him out, simply because he ran back to his ex. Hopefully it makes you feel as good as it did me....

 

"....its all about choice. As says The Matrix! The power of choice is the single most powerful weapon anyone can ever have. No one needs to understand or even accept it. It's the choices we make that make US. And who needs acceptance from anyone anyway? Don't try to understand. I choose who I am, and how I live...for I answer to NOBODY!!!"

 

Keep it in mind, next time you feel weak, you reach for the phone, or second guess yourself. They choose to hurt us. The mindset I was in, something had to give...I could either cut myself away from those I love....or cut him away from me. No one has to understand. Once they've hurt us the way they have, they lose the right of justification of our actions. They do not need to understand our choices...for why the hell would we understand theirs? As one of my favourite sayings goes '....words burn...but silence kills....'

[love_fool]

Omg I almost fell apart this morning to call him because I missed him.. But **** it. I'm stronger than that. I came straight here to post.. I don't miss him, I just miss the idea of a boyfriend.