EmptyPromises Posted August 5, 2009 Share Posted August 5, 2009 sorry for the length.. so its been one rough summer. after dating a guy for about a year, we broke up in the beginning of may. from the second we started going out, we were fighting and breaking up every month(i realized now that instead of fighting stuff out , wed just break up, which was stupid). i have trust issues and found it very hard to trust him. but i lovedd him to death.i was heartbroken nearly the entire summer, absolutley miserable and wanted to work things out with him. i begged, pleaded, cried to him, called him daily, texted him. i was pathetic for about 2 months.he acted like he didnt care .. even though he said he didnt want to move on & loved me and wanted to make things work. i stopped talking to him three weeks ago after i drove 45 minutes to see him and went to a party where he paid no attention to me. i left within half hour , he didnt ask me to stay, he said he didnt care, i told him if i left feeling the way i did that i was completely done with him. the next day he tried talking to me, apologized said he didnt want me to leave. he tried contacting me on facebook a couple of times but i ignored him. two weeks ago he called me one day accusing me of something i didnt do, and he told me he regretted alot of things with me wasnt in love with me anymore blah blah blah. i told him to leave me alone and that was followed by alot of texts saying he loved me etc. last week he called my work several times under a private number, finally he talked to me and just asked me how my life was if i was seeing neone etc. i told him i had to go. the next day he invited me to his house to play on his team for a beer olympics tournament. i told him no thank you. hes been texting me, calling me nonstop for the past 5 days. yesterday i finally gave in and talked to him for a little bit. he keeps asking to come over and talk about things, telling me he wants to take me to dinner in the city, go to the movies, anything to get me to see him . he called me at 3 am the other day just sayin ghe has to see me. i politley say no even though i sooo badly want to. my thing is, i wanted to be with him all summer. and finally when im accpeting that maybe were not meant to be and feeling a little better, he comes running. i feel like he knows summer is coming to an end soon and his friends are going back to school so hell be bored. and since we go to school together he wants that back. but its not fair. as much as i love him he could have had me the whole summer and chose not to. he told me he knows i love that hes chasing me now, and that i love turning him down but that i have to tell him how i feel so he knows what to do. i told him that he couldve had me all summer and chose not to, and i told him that ive spent the last 3 months just miserable and starting to move on, ive never felt so heartbroken in my life, and that i dont just wanna turn around and go into reverse and have to deal with it all over again. his response is please lets hangout " i just wanna chill and talk". i learned alot from the break up, i know what i did wrong and what i could do to fix it, if we were to fix it, i just dont wanna get back into something thats unhealthy, and if hes not going to try.ugh i love this kid i just dont want to settle for less. unless hes going to be absolutley different, i cant go back to him. i feel like im stuck in the middle of moving on for good and letting him go, and going back to the guy im in love with. what do i do? move on? give him another chance? do i go back to NC? talk to him? let him come over? wait it out? ne opinions or advice are welcome.. Link to post Share on other sites
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