flsgirl Posted November 21, 2003 Share Posted November 21, 2003 I just have to say after four months of being completely miserable because of this man breaking my heart, I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel. It was quite odd actually. I've been depressed for four months to the point where I was becoming physically sick. It was because I didn't want to let him go because I still had hope for us and he would realize we were meant to be together. I thought this because he'd call me and keep in contact and keep me hanging. Two nights ago, I had an epiphany! I decided I wanted to fly back to my hometown (where we are both from) to visit my family for Thanksgiving. I thought maybe if he saw me again, things we be rekindled. After I fantasizing about seeing him, my roommate of all people totally twisted things around and said "What the hell is wrong with you?" She basically said that I had WAY more going for me than what he has now (yeah, he's 25, living with his mom and has a really crappy job). This is what he chose to go back to. I don't know why it just clicked in my mind, and i realized that's kind of pathetic (he's pathetic for other reasons too, that i denied). I decided to make a choice: my health and happiness or him...I chose me. I feel so much better now. It's incredible. I'm going home next week and spending it with my family (they think I'm coming home for him). He called and wants to hang and i said "we'll talk" I'm telling him to please not contact me anymore, because I need to heal from this and it won't help me if you're still calling me. I'm LETTING GO! I'll let you know what happens when I get back.... Happy Thanksgiving everyone Link to post Share on other sites
quankanne Posted November 21, 2003 Share Posted November 21, 2003 I'm LETTING GO good for you, flsgirl, good for you A big part of healing -- which is happening right now with you -- is to recognize that while "me" is part of "us," the "us" of a relationship doesn't necessarily comprise the whole person. ¿Entiendes? hard to explain, but you are separate of your relationships, even though you're a part of them. Link to post Share on other sites
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