WishUponAStar Posted September 28, 2009 Share Posted September 28, 2009 Okay well i have been in a long distance relationship for almost 2 years we have never met in person but we have raised our phone bills for each other and seen each other on cam and many other things. I have even been in the mental hospital before because my parents stopped me from talking to him because they dont like ldr's. But uhm about 6 months ago things started going down hill,i moved to a different place and i started to get involved with people. I met this guy robert and..he kinda kept bothering me, like touching me and i told him to stop but he wouldnt and eventually i just let him touch me..and then i started to like him..i was looking for physical attention in him i guess..so like me and my boyfriend genaro basically talked for 2 hours and i cried hard because i didnt want to let genaro go because he has never done anything wrong to me seriously he is so nice and romantic. But i ended up leaving genaro and got with robert after a week i went to this river it was beautiful..and then i started to miss genaro and i couldn't hold back the tears..so i dumped robert the next day and as soon as i did it i regretted it and tried to get back with robert.. robert didnt take me back..and i still didnt go with genaro because he annoyed me a bit.. then i got with this boy mack.. that i knew in person and that didnt last long so then i eventually got back with genaro after a month break up. He told me hes been waiting for me all this time.. and that he loved me so much and when i wasnt with him he couldnt see any color in his world..things went good for awhile but then 4 months later..here i am wondering if i love him..i cry when i think 'i dont love him' or when someone tells me i dont love my boyfriend. My heart just aches i dont know why but it hurts really bad...everytime i try to break up with genaro i just like..i cant do it and whenever i imagine breaking up with him i imagine coming right back people tell me to take a break away from him but i dont think i can do it..I just wish i didnt feel like this it hurts so bad and i cant keep anything from genaro so it hurts him too..Also he has been annoying me alot lately even when hes being sweet..how could i possibly fall out of love with someone when he hasnt done anything wrong to me? I havent been able to smile lately anymore... Help please? Link to post Share on other sites
jumi Posted September 28, 2009 Share Posted September 28, 2009 well right now, whether you stay with genaro or leave him; I wouldn't go out with any one else for at least a few weeks. that way, you wont get a boyfriend just for a crutch; and you wont hurt any one else or yourself. i think you are just psyching yourself out. part of you probably wants to leave genaro and part of you wants to love him... so you might be trying to find the unattractive traits in him and they stand out right now because you are so freaked out. just relax and try to simplify things... dont overanalyze. Link to post Share on other sites
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