"dated" for a year

[RangersFC]

Hey everybody, first off I'd like to say sorry for this being long but it has been going on a long time and I'll try to keep it shorter with all the details so here it is!

 

It all started 3+ years ago with a girl I work with. I was in a previous relationship at the time, and I found out that the woman I was with had cheated on me. A few months later, I had met this girl and wasn't able to talk to her because I'm normally shy with girls that I am interested in. We eventually did begin to talk and right away I knew that I was attracted to her! Just a really fun, happy, and bubbly girl. We had bumped into each other a few times outside of work and she gave me her number. I was too shy even then to call. Time goes on and we start talking a lot about a year and a half ago. For 2 years now she has had the same BF who is a total douchbag and she would complain about him all the time to me and another guy we work with.

 

We started hanging out everyday after work till the early hours of the morning. It was tonnes of fun and we had an amazing connection. She would continue to tell people that I am everything she wants in a BF and I’m so sweet and true feelings came out. Well then things start happening and I fell in love with her more than I have before. I didn't tell her this at the time. Well around xmas her and her man broke up but she continued to live with her ex due to not having anywhere else to go. She had talked about moving out right away, it never happened.

 

Well I was always there and she loved the times we hung out but through time she would be hot and cold towards me. We had sex once and that was while she was single but all in all we were dating but never made it official. She came away with me for a weekend with my friends and she treated me horribly while she was there but I still loved having her there for her company. She got back together with her man and never told me for a very long time. I went NC around that time but it only lasted a week before she came back around and that continued for a few months then she switched shifts and we never talked for more than 5 minutes a day.... Then shortly after that stopped too.

 

Didn't really hang out or talk for about 5 months but I still seen her everyday. Now this other girl really likes me a lot and she is a great girl I started seeing a few weeks ago. Right around that time, the girl that I really want comes back around seeing that I have deleted her from facebook and all messengers as well as her number. In hopes to get over her. We have hung out a few times within this week and things were going right back to how they used to be! I've had great times and just can't move on. We are so great for each other. She has met with a mutual friend and says that she misses me a lot and misses all the things we did together.

 

I just don't know what to do! There is been so much happen in the year that I know I am forgetting a lot but please I want to be with this girl as she is my world! The connection is there between us really strong. She is still with her BF but has moved away from him and living at home with her parents as he did too in hopes to pay off dept. She has always said that her BF is a retard and wouldn't be with him if she didn't live with him.... This was all I wanted to hear while I was with her. So now she has finally moved out! I just really want to be with this girl and will do what it takes!

 

Thanks everyone.