Jmina Posted October 4, 2009 Share Posted October 4, 2009 Hey everyone I am sitting here at 4:45am wondering if i am doing the right thing or not... You see my body clock is (and most of my life) has been out of wack. Although there have been short occasions where i have had to get up early consecutively and i adapted to it wonderfully. The difference was i was waking up to something i loved. When that was over i slipped back into my old habits. my work would start in the afternoon and finish around 8:30pm which was easy for me to sleep in... (and sleep in i do till about midday or even later) I really enjoy night time and i can get a lot done whilst everybody else has nodded off... but i also dearly miss the start of the day and everything i could enjoy and get done in that time. My problem is i want to be awake ALL the time. I would if i could. I would stay awake all night if i wasn't worried about the lack of sleep deprivation! the problem is staying up all hours of the night watching movies, writing, reading, choreographing/dancing, dreaming and planning, feeling - crying, thinking, whatever i always leave to night. I also feel i have a problem living with my parents. I tend to hide away when they are here... i will wait till they are gone before i get up or i wait till they are in bed before i 'am myself' i find it hard to show them my adult self.. in some ways i can but from day to day i find myself resenting them for things i should not. Like... hiding from them. My earliest memory of sleeping problems dates back to when i was in primary school. I used to sneak out of bed and get food, or sit under the dining room table and get a glimpse of the late night movie my parents were watching... i would avoid sleep right through to high school and here and behold. I still do it now. I used to be afraid of night mares, to energetic for sleep, i just want to be awake, however i find it almost impossible to get up at a good hour. I don't want to, i go back into that hide mode. Now i feel it is limiting me in what i dream of. I can't move forward in life, make a difference if i am sleeping late in the day which is the opposite of what i want! So tonight i decided to wake up at 8am no matter what and just get up. The problem is i highly doubt i will do this... i will sleep talk myself out of it. I don't have anything to get up for... so i won't. So in avoidance of this i secondly decided to just pull an all nighter. I hope it works. I want to see the morning. I don't want to hide anymore!!!!! Any help would be really appreciated!!!! Jmina p.s - the getting to sleep isn't so much a problem.. because basically i choose not to sleep, or the sleeping in makes it hard to fall asleep that night. What i don't know how to do is wake up! maybe all i need is encouragement.. another perspective or another voice to nudge me a long. thankyou for reading Link to post Share on other sites
Sweetcheripie Posted October 4, 2009 Share Posted October 4, 2009 Things to do to make waking up easier - Do you like coffee? Buy a coffee maker that you can set to go off about 15 minutes before you want to wake up. The aroma is great to help you wake up. Try to make a routine - go to bed around the same time and then wake up at the same time. Most people find it really necessary to get good sleep - it is not healthy to pull all nighters frequently. Are you ready to move out of your parents home? Wanting to hide until they are gone doesn't sound great. I realize it is hard with the transition relationship but it is probably hard for them too. If you can't move out - try to explore why you want to hide from them. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Jmina Posted October 5, 2009 Author Share Posted October 5, 2009 Oh my god i've almost done it. I stayed up alllll night, went to dance company, drove back, had to pull over to take a moment so i wouldnt fall asleep driving, I was singing, had windows down, air con on, was slapping myself in the face, blowing raspberries - the lot I've fallen asleep momentarily sitting up twice since i've been home! its now 7:20pm i just have over 2 n half hours before i can sleep. MUST STAY AWAKE! I want to just go to sleep now, but i know i'll wake up around midnight - 1 oclock thinking ive slept enough so im just gonna try 10:00pm thankyou sweetcheripie ill reply when i'm not so tired!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Jmina Posted October 14, 2009 Author Share Posted October 14, 2009 It worked!!! =D I now have a good sleeping pattern! I make sure i get up around the same time. I have to admitt that it is easier and i am more motivated to get up because i have enrolled myself into ballet training - hopefully i will be doing full time dance soon and that will ensure i am well tired out during the day to sleep peacefully at night! =) Link to post Share on other sites
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