FabulousLadee Posted October 13, 2009 Share Posted October 13, 2009 I'm just up at 4am...thinking and missing my guy...it hurts. Why did I have to meet my possible soulmate in this type of circumstance? Why me? I really hate this sometimes and it makes me weep. You join an online dating site...you want to meet someone special but you honestly never anticipate you really meeting your heart. Sometimes I wonder..how can I love someone that I hardly ever get to see?! AND this will continue until he graduates from law school...which is 2 years away? AND it's not even a guarantee that he'd still want to be with me when he graduates? We care so much about each other. We call each other our best friend. We've even tried to let it go....TWICE....because of the agony of not being in the physical... and we just can't do it...we can't let each other go. We talk every single day..several times a day..for hours. I miss him so much and I so wish he was laying here with me right now. Just venting....huuuh Link to post Share on other sites
Rollercoasterr Posted October 13, 2009 Share Posted October 13, 2009 I used to do that a lot. I used to get so angry about being so far apart and I'd just lie in bed at night and cry. It was awful. But then once we got engaged I found about a billion things to do to occupy myself. Any time I start to feel bad I check our USCIS account to see if we've been touched, or I start planning some random detail of our wedding. It helps. I've also started working on a little project for him. I'd share on here, but he likes to read what I write on here a lot. PM me if you want to know, lol. But it really is therapeutic and I think it's helped more than anything else. Anyway, vent often. It helps. Link to post Share on other sites
Bearandsue Posted October 13, 2009 Share Posted October 13, 2009 I have been there too....I cant tell how many sleepless tearful nights I have had. All you can do is look forward. If you think too much about the bad side of your situation it can really depress you. At least you are with a person you completely adore and who loves you back. Why do you keep thinking he won't want to be with you when he leaves school? Link to post Share on other sites
Author FabulousLadee Posted October 13, 2009 Author Share Posted October 13, 2009 Thanks, Roller!! I will PM you about that too. =) @Bear - Sometimes we have discussions about the future and it's always an uncertaincy (spelling) from him. He isn't going to stay in Michigan. He is set on practicing in Baltimore and the question was raised from him..if I'd be open to moving to Baltimore. I told him..of course. I know many of you have gone longer than 2 years without your mate. I'll be 32 yrs old..He'll be 30. I just don't know...anything can happen in 2 years. We'll see. I'm optimistic about it though. He just gets a little discouraged by not having that interaction/intimacy as a man...if you know what I mean..for 2 whole years. That's just reality. Link to post Share on other sites
Romance Posted October 15, 2009 Share Posted October 15, 2009 Know the feeling. It's such a helpless and terrible feeling to miss someone so much. Link to post Share on other sites
Maggs Posted October 17, 2009 Share Posted October 17, 2009 Oh I know that feeling all too well! Going through a horrible couple of weeks--upset, discouraged, lonely, miserable. Most nights I don't sleep much so I'm struggling through the day, walking around in a daze of insomnia and puffy eyes from crying. And to top it all off, the next time we might see each other could mean a 6-7 month wait. We've never gone that long! I'm desperate for something positive right now. Link to post Share on other sites
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