The World Lives Just Fine Without Us, Won't We

[Zaragon]

Part 2 of my letter.

 

The World Lives Just Fine Without Us, Won't We.

 

Love. Roses are red, violets are blue -- heartbreakers like you, are far and few. Go ahead, stroke your cheeks, put on your blush, lick your lips and such. A beauty to behold, let the story unfold. Your green eyes like an evergreen forest, your lips a shelter for solace. Your beautiful tresses dance like dandelions in the wind, your body makes me want to sin. One look is all it took. I trembled like a puppy in the rain, captured another soul for your game. Pricked like a hidden thorn in vain, do you still remember my name?

 

Interlude. Stuck in this time warp, jumping through hoops, once again I tell myself I can live another day. The air I breathe is dirty and my lungs are charred. I blow this smoke again, reminding myself how addicted I am. You said, "I would die if I kept this up." Can you promise me it is so. I think I do it to spite you now that you have gone. My joy, my life, my lungs, my phlegm. Its no longer a concern to you, it was all a charade. The things I turn to in desperation to escape this reality. Falter and don't follow in my footsteps, for you will repent and find deeper sorrow. Reality won't distort. I see that now, it was me that was distorting all along.

 

Memories. I stare at these empty photo frames all day. I see, I don't have a picture of me without you. The reflecting glass haunts and taunts me. They are laughing at me as I sit here staring at these walls. I think of you so much. I wonder if its love. Your mouth, your eyes, your lips, your touch. I walk down the street wishing every person would turn into you. Hoping I could see you again one more time. Hoping we could be the same again one last time. One last breath together. The sleepless sweaty nights awaken me, jolting me, and I look over searching to tell you how afraid I am. No one's there, just shadows and silence. I remember how you used to hold me and comfort me, shield me from my bad dreams. Can you find it in your heart to save me once again? Take my hand and everything will be all right.

 

Outside. I despise the outside. The sunlight, the people, the couples, the happiness. People tell me to be a man. Pity smiles, pity hugs, pity love, the nod of doom. Paint me a canvas, a rosy picture, hand me another shot of bourbon, pimp your whore out to me. Does this make you happy? I don't need a savior. Where should I go? I don't belong here. I like it inside, in my shell, just you and I dancing forever. I can't escape and run anymore. I need courage to face the world. Once we were two and I was fearless. Now I feel so jaded and empty. I have nothing to offer anymore. I am barely living without you now. I am so afraid to tell you so.

 

Inside. Come with me, Ahoy Matey! Let's set sail together through my fantasies. Look into my eyes. Tonight is a very special night, its just you and me. The moon shines brightly, the tide rocks our boat, clouds rage and darken, the wind softly blows as the thunder gods descend upon us. We are mischievous though aren't we. Hold me tighter, lets play. Sing and dance our sorrows away, lets kiss like its your birthday. You still with me matey? Hello? Can you hear me my darling? ... Hello?...

 

Reality. You are gone. I am gone. We are lost now in a new world. A new beginning has come upon us. I reject it. I reject you. Where will this lead us tomorrow. I would tell you if I could. I bring it upon you to question yourself, can you see me in the arms of another? Can you bless me and set me free? Will you find it in your heart to forgive me? Will you love again? I know I want to. I want to love you. Take my love because its all I have to give. Love can't save us, then what will? Just wake up and see how much I love you. I am not doing okay. I am not alright. I haven't moved on. I am stuck on you like chewing gum. Stop crushing me, you're hurting me.