Long - frustraited.

[wierdmunky]

My parents want me around. They believe a girl should be home, and that there are outside forces that pull the family apart. I can not stand to be with them sometimes. I care about them because they are family and have raised me, but they have such a negative outlook on life, that I really do not want to be near them at ALL. If there are people that I associate with that are not Christian, or have a different way of living life, (outside their box/bubble) they label them as "bad" people. Plain bad. They call me out as being a follower if I do something that they don't agree with because they assume I'm just following everyone else verses them.

 

I'm feel like I'm coming close to a breaking point, which I don't know what is going to happen. I just get so stressed out with trying to work with them, and they incessantly bring up the negative in all situations. They laugh at other peoples flaws, talk wrong about people and the things that they don't do but should achieve, and says that people will want to take advantage of me so I should stay home, the diff between american vz our. culture and

 

I feel I'm not strong enough anymore to stand up to them and say that they have to stop putting me down, everything that they complain about other people are things that they think are wrong with ME, and it seems they are just saying those things to tell me what is wrong with my life.

 

My friends tell me, I should def move out, and hang out with more people my own age.

 

On the other hand the friends that I have, that have kids are also empathetic towards my parents to an extent, which I feel is totally wrong because I have been trying to meet my parents emotional needs and they have trampled all over mine.

 

I don't even know how to tell friends that without sounding whiny, but I feel like an emotional crutch. From the minute I get home, my mom is venting about life and such, and I understand that life is hard, but how do you focus on that through your entire day.

 

I quit last year to go back to school and have allocating my myself savings, but am ready to work again. I think I'm so sensitive them because I've voiced my stand on what they think, and they don't understand WHY I think the way I do, so they try to make it a "bad" thing that I don't think like them.

 

I know I just need to not let them affect me, but I start to feel sorry for myself and wonder "why my parents are like that".

 

This brings out trust issues in my other relationships, and I've also had people tell me. I appreciate that I have parents, and everything they do, but I can't say how trapped I feel here. I'm kind of tired of feeling responsible for their unhappiness, but also feel guilty with not being here with them.