16 year old in high school ALCOHOLIC , suffer from illusions? weird!!!!!!!!!!

[stanlovesJ]

OK, so last year i was a freshman in high school. it was the craziest year of my life! to start off, i was 14, not too popular, not a loner , and i was friends with alot of kids that smoked and drank.I had normal friends too.

Well they were nice and accepted me.

Anyways, i got interested and started drinking quite frequently.i would buy beer , ( 6 and 12 packs) quite often from my friend. i would also buy vodka from him sometimes.

 

I threw parties at my sisters house, she wouldnt really mind.I became friends with the cheerleaders, and they would come, and bring people with them. well for a freshman i was surprised at what i accomplished.

 

Well anyways when ever i had a crazy party and my sisters house I would burn out the next day.

 

Maybe from all the hyper in me, i dont know. With time, i would start getting illusions in my head (stil have them sometimes), like "wow did i really do this with that girl?" or "wow did we really pull that off?" and i would kind of get scared of drinking. then i would quit for maybe 3 weeks and do it again.

 

 

 

These thoughts bother me sometimes , because i do not know if i embarrassed myself drunk, and what other people saw or remember.We were never wasted, maybe 5 beers i drank at once. Most people i ask , dont really remember those drinking parties.I was kind of addicted to alcohol last year. then i kind of started to control it , not getting cold turkey anymore. The alcohol sometimes made me weird things.

 

 

 

 

How do i get rid of these thoughts bothering me in my head if i dont know whats real? Maybe it was my ego? if i ask someone something from last year, they might think im joking. maybe they wont remember at all.

Edited October 28, 2009 by stanlovesJ

[Enema]

So you drank a lot of beer. (for a 14 year old)

 

Then, you're not sure if you remember things correctly the next day?

 

That's a fairly normal reaction to overdoing it.

[stanlovesJ]

i know but do you think i was imagining stuff?

[Sweetcheripie]

i know but do you think i was imagining stuff?

 

 

Do you have a counselor you can see? Or can you talk to your family physician? What you are describing could be a psychiatric condition and the alcohol might be a way of self medicating.

 

Would you be able to talk to your parents?