its taking all the strengnth I have to push thru this but HE is...

[NewMe1973]

making this so damn hard to do this! I'm currently 1 month, 16 days into no contact. but he keeps calling me!!!!

 

I left him for the 3rd time for being a chronic cheater & liar. shortly before I found out he was cheating again, he had mentioned to me he cares alot about me but is not in love with me. for that reason alone, i told him i will let him go so he can follow his heart & be happy. then a few days later, I found out thru pics & such he was cheating on me ONCE AGAIN & slept someone while we were still together!

 

after 3 chances, nothing with him has changed and he burned me once again so I knew I had to get out, cut all ties and move on & I specifically told him not to try to contact me anymore & to stay the F*** out my life. he is toxic for me! that was on Sept. 24. I have cut off all ties possible with him, got rid of any and everything that had to do with him, even changed my cell number. but he still has my work # which can't be changed, and he constantly call every week, sometimes 2-3 xs, doesn't say much of anything just says he wants to know how i'm doing or sometimes he doesn't leave a mssg at all. the recent mssg he left he said he knows what happened wasn't too nice, but that he is doing good...:eek:WTF?! and for me to say hi to my daughter for him and to keep my head up! WTF!?

 

its like to this day, I haven't gotten any kind of feedback from him that he is remorseful or regretting what he did to me. i know for a fact he is still with that other women I caught him cheating on me with. he already has told me he doesn't love me, he got his new gf, he made his choice of who he wanted, what more could he want!! I'm just not sure why he keeps calling when he's made it painfully obvious he doesn't love me...should i take his calls to find out? I"m still being strong even though its hard as hell, cuz I did fall in love with him and am missing him like crazy. apart of me wishes that maybe there's a small chance he realized he loves me afterall but I know thats just wishful thinking... thx for reading and any input would be most appreciated.