LostLozz Posted November 10, 2009 Share Posted November 10, 2009 I have struggled immensly and even today I almost broke NC by using some lame excuse to get in contact. I am so glad that I didn't. I don't hate him. In fact I think that I will always love my ex, but I know that even as much as I would love to be friends with him again, I am just not ready yet. I am officially 20 days NC although I did reply "Thanks" to a text that he sent me three days in. I have seen him 3 times since then and because I chose not to speak to him, he is following suit. I hate that our beautiful relationship has come to this. (At least I thought it was beautiful. He is a CP) Anyhow, I have been deactivated from FB for 6 days now and I am pretty sure that he is aware of my disappearing act by now. Our last conversation was based on me asking whether we were going to get back together and he told me that he couldn't say yes and he couldn't say no...so I told him I was letting go and that he needed to give me space. Suprisingly he appears to be respecting that, and I doubt that he will be in contact with me. I have felt better over the past two days after joining an online dating site. The positive feedback that I have received has boosted my bruised ego slightly. Next I think I need to get my ass down the gym. I haven't been in months and I know I need to start feeling good about myself again. I just wanted to say thanks to Leap and all the others for their words of wisdom along the way. I don't post often but read daily. Thanks guys x Link to post Share on other sites
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