xmas doom

[thegoose]

I have been wondering how strong I would be around xmas..I am about 2 months into my healing from our break..and about 2 weeks nc....The last contact emails sent me back to square one....I analazed every little word she had said and found hope when really It was more about her dating someone and prepare yourself for xmas...hmmm

 

So today I am being strong for myself and my 11 year old daughter. I thought lets put the christmas tree up..thinking I can do this....Man I am crushed again..How did I lose the love of my life..She had bought that tree for us last year..I remember how happy she was to arrive with it...

Just all the memories just flooding me into despair....Fork this suks...

I am going to be alone with my daughter at xmas while her new dude spends xmas with her and her wonderful family....I feel so much pity for my pathetic situation its really sad....I know I am an awesome father and my little girl is extremly happy and healthy..but we both miss her so much its heart breaking....

 

So xmas is scary this year... **** I hope santa brings some morphine...

 

somebody please kik my sorry ass.....

desperate daddy

[adamt]

I'm right with you. For me I think new year will be hardest. I'll end up reflecting on the past 12 months. remember what i was doing last new years eve and thinking how great i was hoping for 2009 and getting a house with the ex.

 

Word of advice chuck out that old xmas tree and go get a new one. Fresh start and all that! it might make you feel liberated a little!

 

THink how lucky you are to spend xmas with your daughter, many fathers who split up dont get that chance. spoil your daughter rottern and that will make you feel tonnes better seeing her face light up. you have a chance to make it your daughters best ever xmas. You know what, wish i had a kid to spoil at xmas!

[McGrupp]

How did I lose the love of my life.

 

u didnt. your daughter will be with you Christmas day