Ugh - was doing so well.

[Kantor]

So i'm out doing some holiday shopping, not feeling that well so I decide to take off and head home.

 

Driving down the street on the way home and going the other direction is not only a car that looks like hers but a driver that matches the description.

 

Mind you, I've been doing very well in the last week (We've been broken up 1.5 months and on strict NC for almost 2 weeks)

 

Not so much right now, I was a mess, turned around to see if it was her.

 

Probably for the better I got stopped at a light.

 

I guess I just had an I miss you moment and rather then break NC and share it with her I needed to share it with LS.

 

Now of course Im very tempted to break NC =/

 

I was the dumper, dealing with CP, and shes had enough she says, so there is no point as it will only cause me pain.

 

I just am having trouble letting the hope go =/