Very hurt really depressed

[Nik2]

I work in a place where it’s mostly me my boss and this girl and guy.

Anyway, this girl who I’ve worked with for over a year is so beautiful and has treated me as a friend but is also very flirty pokes me and keeps telling me that I’m handsome. She calles me a bad boy and I call her a bad girl ect....

 

I’m obsessed with this girl but she is married and has just had her second baby. Anyway this guy I work with who is also a friend at work gives her a ride every day because her husband is a truck driver and she has no licenses. They are both Mexican and very good friends. He was in love with her way before I started working there and he still is but he is married also.

 

Anyway, I am so jealous lately because I’ve noticed that she is always following him around and sometimes they despair for 30 mint’s at a time and it's like my boss don't even notice. I’m getting sick just talking about it.

 

This girl has made me feel so close to her in the past year and she keeps telling me I have nice eyes but sometimes it seems like she is ignoring me at the end of the day. For example when we are all getting ready to leave and her back is to me I say goodbye across the room it's like she dosen't hear me yet her friend standing next to her says good by and she diden't even turn around. What should I think?

 

Half the time I never know what the three are saying because both girls and this guy speak in Spanish. The new girl is a temp by the way.

This new girl there has also hit on me a lot and she is very cute but I am so crazy about this girl who I feel is a fake now. This guy who is my friend at work and looks out for me locks the doors when we all leave and he rides her home "everyday". I've taken her home a few times when he was sick.

 

She was always in such a hurry to get home to meet her babysitter but these last two weeks it almost seems as though they are both taking their time waiting for me to leave. even my boss made a comment to me on the side asking me if they left after me.

I am so crazy about her and he was a friend and I’m starting to hate them both.

I don't even want to talk to them and I feel sick now

 

What signs should I look for to see if they really are cheating?

[dyermaker]

Why is it any of your business?

 

I'm not a native speaker, but next time she makes an advance on you, say " No haga eso, de que no es apropiado."

[Nik2]

Do not do that, That is not appropriate?

 

But what do you mean it’s none of my business? It’s no more his business then it is mine, after all she is/was my friend also

 

Ya I guess it’s not my business but it still hurts when someone you like f…cks with your mind making you think they care about you and then blows you off. Sorry man but it's a $hity feeling

 

 

 

Anyway, from what I said doses it sound likes they are messing around? anyway this guy allways tells me he is my buddy, why would he not be up front with me?

[Nik2]

Dyermaker

 

Dude, what’s with your tone? You make it sound like I don’t belong here. Again just why is it not my business?

 

 

As you said your not a native speaker, it sounds to me like you may be looking out for you own.

 

If you noticed the name of this forum is called Jealousy and flirting, why doses he have the right to be concerned about her and not me? Is he a better human then me?

I've worked with this girl for a year and she has flirted and led me to believe she cared for me as a friend and they grows.

 

Explain your self, Your comments did me no good and your tone was rude

[Nik2]

Please disregard my comments above Dyermaker

 

You were right it’s not my business, I am sorry for what I said to you above.

 

She is married and I have no right to keep tabs on her, it is her husband’s business.

I was wrong and upset because of the way she has made me feel over this last year.

Truth is I feel sorry for her husband who is out driving a truck everyday while she flirts. This guy that gives her a ride at my work who I was jealous of tells her things against what her husdbands says like he will tell her not to put up with his $hit.

I guess her husdband beleaves that she should stay home with the two kids one being a new baby girl and he has every right to say that.

This guy at my work is wrong for telling her to not put up with his $hit just becouse he wants her to come to work.

I am also wrong for acting like she belonged to me, but I fell into the trap.

 

I even left work today because I was so upset at her and everyone but you are absolutely correct.

I just didn’t see it because I was being selfish and I was and still am sad.

I’ll do my best to view her as just an employee for now on. Thanks for pointing that out to me.

Sometimes life can really be sad and I have some hang-ups that can make my world black and white sometimes.

[jmargel]

Glad you kinda woke up. Just remember that last post your made. She sounds like she has quite a bit of problems spreading her love. If you were to get involved with her, it would be hard to trust her and your jealousy now would turn into a controlling behavior. Find someone to go out with, doesnt have to mean its your future gf. Just someone to take your mind off of her. When my ex-fiancee left I thought my world ended. But I was so wrong. My new gf is 10000 times better than my ex, and never been happier.

[Nik2]

She doses spared love. I don’t know what is considered flirting but, she doses things like poke me in the stomach, grab my cheek but she doses that to other people.

 

What to hear something funny?

I was so cold this thursday to her and this guy that gives her a ride, that I felt the need to bring her a cake on friday make up and say sorry to everyone for being in such a bad mood. But then I always bring in pie and give stuff to people there:

Anyway this thursday also happend to be her birthday.

I got pissed off about something this guy was saying and out loud I said “I hope she brings a small piece of cake to her husband”

I'm sure you know what I meant by that, he sure did.

after he told her that she looked suprised I said that.

 

Anyway, my so called buddy who gives her a ride just had to go back and repeat that to her. I called him a f..cking ass hole becouse he got tough with me and because it seems lately that any time he has an opportunity to make me look bad to the girls he will and since he speaks in spanish I can't defend myself.

 

I guess the reason I’m really staring to hate this guy ( My so called Friend) is because he talks so much $hit about her husband. Like he makes fun of her husbands age in front of her and she thinks it’s funny or doses not seem to mind him saying that. She must not respect her man.

I’m glad I said what I said about her saving a piece of cake for her husband, maybe it will make her realize that I don’t respect her as being a good woman.

This guy has no respect for her husband and tells her to not put up with his $hit. In the mean time her husband who can’t give her a ride is out busting his ass driving a truck for a living. I just can’t be friends with people like this.

 

But like you said, there was nothing there anyways so I really shouldn’t worry. Anyway I really need to learn Spanish so I can her what the girls and this guy are saying half the time.

[AllyKat]

Ohhh! Please Please run! This girl is no good. Im not trying to be rude..but you need to get over her. She isnt yours, you really cant be jealous. This other guy, he also needs a reality check. I mean, she is married and has children!! I doubt anyone would want to be the reason to break up a marriage!

 

Bottom line, she is married. Im sure she is flirty because alot of people do that just for attention. They have low self esteem. Please dont play her game! If your friend is....(I so hate cheaters)...he needs to stop.

 

Im glad you are doing better about this. But, to leave work earlier? I mean come on, imagine what her and her husband do together?! Really, you are playing with fire and it seems you have already gotten in too far. Let it go, if she were for you, she definately wouldnt be married, or flirty with other men.

 

Your friend? Dont hate him because he is making fun of this girls husband, I mean at one point you had ulterior motives, right? It seems to me you are jealous and it will be best for your friend and you when this "woman" leaves.

 

No respect to you, I just dont like people holding fire in their hands and not trying to put it out.

[Nik2]

You are so right AllyKat, and it will be let go.

By the way, I’m not so much upset at this guy because of what he says about her husband.

I’m more upset about the stuff he says at times about me to the girls to make me look foolish but that’s off topic anyway.

 

In all honesty, what dyermaker said has made me resize to think about her husband and not just myself.

 

Don't worry the fire is dying.

 

 

 

By the way AllyKat, if that’s you in that picture to the left, You are a very…very….very cute girl!

[AllyKat]

Terribly flattered I am! lol

 

Just please dont let her play you. Gosh how I hate that! It is so wrong.

 

She is a man eater...they even made a song about her! lol

[Nik2]

I promises, I will be good

[AllyKat]

Good about what? Now Im lost!

[Nik2]

I was just kidding around with you; I mean I will not play her game.

 

Thanks for your concerns by the way you are a good hearted person, I can tell.

[AllyKat]

I was hurt BAD. No one deserves that. If I can help one person get away from a toxic relationship...or just be there for them to talk, I will.

 

Thanks for the compliment. You are sweet.

[Nik2]

You are very welcome, and once again thank you!

[AllyKat]

Dont thank me! Just stay away from this girl! lol That will make me happy!

 

Side note, whats up with that site in your profile??? Diapers? Im so lost now!

[Nik2]

Opps, you caught me. Sorry

 

 

Well, it’s a long story but here is the deal.

When I was about 5 or 6 I was fascinated with diapers. I was horrified of being caught with them but never the less I would try to steal them from my cousin’s closet. I here the same story from a lot of other people with this same what ever you want to call it.

 

There is something called infantilism and it takes many different foams in different people without getting in too much depth. For me I have the fantasy of wanting to be babied by a girl and I like being teased by them but in a playful and cute way. It’s not that I’m not grown up or responsible it’s just something I crave that I’m not aware of just yet.

 

I’ll use frustration for an example: I am turned on when I am defeated by a good looking girl such as yourself. Kind of like when you play a sport with a guy sometimes the girl will tease the guy because he lost. Like the way a little sister will do to her brother to piss him off.

I enjoy when a girl dose that to me.

The diaper wraps around your body giving you the feeling of being trapped in it.

In my mind this feeling puts the girl at an advantage over me. she can tease me bout wearing a diaper and there is noting I can do about it.

 

In my fantasy girls control everything and boys have to do what they say. That would make most men angry but for me I get turned on. so even though I'm age 25 in reality, in fanticy when I play I am roll playing as though I am about 3.

 

Anyway before I totally loose you…lol

These emotions of defeat causes excitement in my manly parts to put it polite.

-And this excitement is is released into the diaper when masturbation when I get off. So these feelings of incompetence are being turned into excitement and released into the diaper.

 

What people don’t realize is that everyone has these kinds of emotions in in some way or another but we all use different ways of releasing these feelings.

a lot of people who have this fetish say diapers releaves stress and others say it gives them a form of security.

I don't know what they do to me, I just know they turn me on. when ever I see a cute girl I want to be babyed by them and loved.

 

Anyway, it’s kind of deep but I think it's cute and no I do not go to the bathroom in the diaper I just like the feeling of being a baby again. Also I do not dress like a baby as some AB/DL's, I dress like a normal dude and this is only something I do at home though I have had diapers on in public under my shorts.

 

Please understand, I hope you still like me.

You’re a cool girl AllyKat and I wouldn’t tell you all this if I didn’t think you were intelligent. By the way did you actually see my pictures, I would love for a cute girl like you to see them? Pleeeeeeeeeeeas go look!…………… I have a face shot at the bottom of the photo page now so you can see what I look like.

 

Hope I diden't scare you…lol

 

Marry Christmas cool girl!

By the way, read this to understand it.

http://understanding.infantilism.org/

[Nik2]

Damn I hope I didn’t loose your respect.

 

It makes life difficult, because I have not had a sexual relationship with a woman becouse I'm so different.

My mind and my body are enemies at times, but that doesn't mean I can't have meaningful relationships with people. We are immersed in a culture where we are raised EXPECTING to have an intimate, sexual relationship with someone, and when it doesn't happen, we feel estranged from the rest of society. What's worse is that everyone who has already found someone is still connected with that culture, and they don't seem to know what to do with people like us who aren't following the rules.

And that makes us feel like untouchables, which just feeds the internal rage which just keeps us on the outside and feeds this fetish.

 

But all good intimate relationships begin with friendship. And if friendship is the best that one can, One isn’t doing so bad.

 

I hope someday.

[Nik2]

You know AllyKat, I just wanted to say how sorry I am if I’ve made you feel uncomfortable in away way in my posts above.

I know this behavior is not normal and I’m actually going to be seeing a counselor this week to try and understand it. I wish I had not hid it back when I was young and what I was afraid of I still don’t know.

 

I think I’ve been a pretty good person and caring person through out my life but it has been a lonely one being so afraid to talk to anyone about this. Now that I’m older I’m more open and willing to try to find the reason.

 

Again, with all my heart I truly am sorry if I’ve offended you or was rude in any way from this.

 

 

Thanks for all your help with the original topic.

 

Piece

[AllyKat]

First off, I was out of town. Secondly, as I do find it terribly strange, you need to understand, you are talking to someone from a small town, this is really odd to me.

 

Fortunately, as long as you are not hurting anyone, I try not to judge. Its not up to me.

 

I do apologize for taking so long to answer you back...but assure you I am not offended.

[Nik2]

Cool thanks for being so cool about it.

Hearing from you again just made my night because I thought maybe I freaked you out.

For some strange reason I feel like I need approval from people which is why I kind of throw this out at you for a reaction.

You have a good heart girl and a very positive attitude.

I’ve been called a lot of names for being so open and it really hurt. Anyway I really appreciate you being so understanding, it would be very easy to call you a friend.