amilyah Posted January 7, 2010 Share Posted January 7, 2010 Oh my god.If youve seen any of my threads you know ive been seperated for almost 2 months.Well my husband lesft me (he had ow).Which im over i dont even want him back.Well mostly anyway dont think i would ever forgive him.Well tonight my first husband (who i left for my second husband)found out im getting divorced.He is remarried with 3 kids.I let him come over and we almost slept together.He has been seperated only 3 days.I dont know what the hell im doing here,im just needing someone but dont want to hurt another marriage.I dont love him except he is the father of my kids but dont want him back at all.He has always loved me and said he still does.But that was 20 years ago and he loves his wife 2.what the hell am i doing.I did make him leave but god i was so close to sleeping with him.It would have just broke up another marriage because i will never be with him again.I ****ing need help bad.Another thing is ive been talking to another guy who wants to go out with me Hes 60 and im only 40.I asked him last week to come over just to hold me and be my friend, but he wants more.I dont want to lose a friend but he wants me.And i think hes a little to old 4 me.BUt hes a very nice guy.I think im just trying to move on to fast or just trying to get revenge on my current husband.Ive almost slept with like 4 guys but when it comes down to it i stop myself.Except my 1st ex we both agreed not the right time.Im sure im sounding like a slut, but im really not i havent slept with many guys.I just feel like im trying to hard.I really dont know why im being like this. Im alone tonight but want to call anyone over(not for sex) just to hold me but i know it would lead to something more. So i dont i will be alone again.Im ****ing tired of being alone. Link to post Share on other sites
Author amilyah Posted January 7, 2010 Author Share Posted January 7, 2010 oh forgot to mention any single guys 40 to 50 im single lol just kidding. Link to post Share on other sites
ann09 Posted January 7, 2010 Share Posted January 7, 2010 You sound lonely and in need of attention. I say you step away from all men at this point and work on yourself - you need to love yourself before letting anyone else love you. Link to post Share on other sites
nobmagnet Posted January 7, 2010 Share Posted January 7, 2010 yep ann09 sound advise. Maybe you both should take it. Your lonley and feeling vunerable............your actions show that. Get a cat and cuddle that. Men should be off limits until you have healed. You feel down and need attention to take tha pain away but dont use men for it . Get some sdvice on low self esteem and work through it........at the end of it..............wow you will shine! bast of luck nob xx Link to post Share on other sites
ann09 Posted January 7, 2010 Share Posted January 7, 2010 Yep sometimes we give advice without having it pertain to ourselves. I just reread my post and you are right, I should heed to it also. Link to post Share on other sites
RedDevil66 Posted January 7, 2010 Share Posted January 7, 2010 A cat is not an "it" and second, get a therapist, not a cat. Not trying to be a wise a&&, but seriously, you are lonely and feel the only way to feel good about yourself is with the affection of another person. I bet you've never been single for long in your life? What is unfamiliar is scary. Enjoy your alone time, Get to know who you are. Your on the road to feeling more empty than you are now if you just keep looking for men to "cuddle" Glad you stopped and not had sex with an ex. Link to post Share on other sites
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