adamt Posted January 9, 2010 Share Posted January 9, 2010 I thought i would find xmas and new year the toughest to get through, but I seem to be finding january worse. I managed to keep myself busy over xmas.Here in the uk we have loads of snow, so as usual the country comes to a standstill. i cant get out and occupy myself. I dont know why but I seem to be thinking about the ex more recently. I had no contact from her over the holidays which is what i expected. i worked out she had a life changing experience and having some kind of midlife crisis. so i dont blame myself anymore for our break up. she just changed as a person especially in appearance. About a month ago i met a gorgeous girl,the first date went well and we talked about going out again. i never thought about the ex when i was out on the date.however she has returned to her home country for 6 weeks,so waiting for her to come back. hopefully she will get back in touch. I just feel i want to fast forward these dark cold months and wake up in spring. This year i am determined to get out and do lots of outdoor activies like cycling and walking.cant wait for that first day of spring. anyone else finding it hard this time of the year. I cant believe its coming upto 8 months and i am still trying to move on.time has gone quick and bit of a blur. before i know it, it will be 12 months. its hard trying not to reflect on this time last year just before she started changing and how great things were. hopefully in 12 months time i have moved on and found someone else. it still feels a little empty and i am missing something Link to post Share on other sites
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