Freezing Posted January 10, 2010 Share Posted January 10, 2010 Okay I am a back slider and I love the Lord with all my heart. My problem is I have several family members whom claim to be these devout Christians. Etc. Yet when their own flesh and blood was out on the streets cold tired and hungry on Christmas Day Not one of them even took the time to text or call to see if I was okay or if I wanted to come spend it with them. I cried the whole day and I still can't believe it. I have 7 brothers and 1 Sister and I am the youngest of them all. And my family just don't care about me. My left when I was 8. I havent felt loved or wanted ever since. I am in my 40 and have major issues from my childhood and have always been alone since I was very young. Why doesnt my Family love me. Why? I seriously want to die I feel so alone all the time. I know one thing I could never ever enjoy my Christmas knowing one of my siblings was out there somewhere with nowhere and no one to share it with. :( Link to post Share on other sites
Jade 02 Posted January 10, 2010 Share Posted January 10, 2010 FREEZING I was there too only for 2 years though from age 13 to 15 when I met a drunk abusive 26 year old who at least took me off the streets so the two black eyes every weekend,were worth being off the streets. But you say 40,and you need to get some help if your on the streets most countys have salvation army bunks you can spend nights at ,ya have to be sober though. Why are they booting you anyways,I got booted for drinking as my dad was trying to sober up in his early days of AA.Me drunk in his house wasnt gonna get it si out the door I went. I am no Dr but there is an 800 number to call for suicide people,and maybey they can help you. I know Jobs are hard to get these days BELIVE me i have been looking,One of the small cities in NC newspaper,HIS NOT1 NOT1 job posted for ANYTHING!!! Please don't commit suicide I would like to see you keep posting here. I so can relate to how you feel about being booted by your own flesh,and blood,I use to blame them,now I see why they booted me,I also made sure I was not going to be in the states care,so I tild dad not to call the cops on me. There has got to be some kind of hlp out there for you,do you have a friend who can at least get you started. Hope to hear from you again,my heart hurts for you as I relate. warm hugz from jade Link to post Share on other sites
pureinheart Posted January 17, 2010 Share Posted January 17, 2010 Okay I am a back slider and I love the Lord with all my heart. My problem is I have several family members whom claim to be these devout Christians. Etc. Yet when their own flesh and blood was out on the streets cold tired and hungry on Christmas Day Not one of them even took the time to text or call to see if I was okay or if I wanted to come spend it with them. I cried the whole day and I still can't believe it. I have 7 brothers and 1 Sister and I am the youngest of them all. And my family just don't care about me. My left when I was 8. I havent felt loved or wanted ever since. I am in my 40 and have major issues from my childhood and have always been alone since I was very young. Why doesnt my Family love me. Why? I seriously want to die I feel so alone all the time. I know one thing I could never ever enjoy my Christmas knowing one of my siblings was out there somewhere with nowhere and no one to share it with. :( First of all you have identified many things in a couple of short paragraphs...this is much progress. Ok now look at what you've identified: Rejection-regardless if this is the truth or not, it is how YOU feel. The rejection of family members can be very devastating, whether they are Christians or not, please keep in mind that even Christians are human and make mistakes, although in order to maintain your sanity you either must sit them all down and tell them how you feel or let them go and move on with YOUR life. They make not make your situations any easier, although they are not resposible for your well being....you are. Now you've said you are a "back slider"....ok you are human, right? Ask God for forgiveness, also I would suggest that you ask Him to reveal Himself to you as you are not an island. The enemy loves to get us in the place that you are at so that he can totally take us off this earth. I would say you have a very high calling on your life, or you would not be hit this hard. I am thinking you meant to say that your "dad" left when you were 8 and you have several brothers and sisters...wow I would say that the remaining parent had her/his hands full..... Freezing, I am strongly sensing your main issue is unforgiveness.....forgive the missing parent and I am possitive your thought process will change. Also get into a good church and get some help. Freezing, I speak an out pouring of love over you this night, in Jesus name....GBU Link to post Share on other sites
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