was replying wrong?

[ukguy1985]

from jan last year to sept i was, well in a online relationship i know a sad thing . she at first had a crush on me and told me and i didnt really have any feelings in return at first but i did later. so we talked alot, did online stuff together. towards the end i pushed her away as i thought she was losing interest. she didnt like me complimentating her etc which probably caused the friction as it led me to believe she was losing interest. right until the first 2 two weeks of sept she then said im suffocating her. i tried to give space and i didnt i think or maybe i did. then one day she ignored me by not replying to me and i didnt ask why that day and just left it as that day since it indicated to me that the writings on the wall and the next day i said do you want to end it and she then replied "i dont really want to but itll be for the best". so i did and admittingly i regretted suggesting that and wanted to try to get back but didnt bother.

 

day after i started NC well until her bday a month later as i mailed her happy bday and she didnt reply which i expected but was disappointed at the same time. i then continued NC and that lasted til this week until i got a message from her saying "listen, i would like us to be friends...or at least civil towards each other", during these 3 months i was basically ignoring her when she was online. i do know she got into relationship a few days later in her real life which of course naturally upset me as she mentioned it in guild chat (i was online but she didnt realise i was).

 

now her message from 2 nights ago, i didnt reply back to her as funnily enough i felt asleep 30mins-1hr before she sent that message. i did mail her saying saw your message and i need to think about it but didnt explain as to why i didnt reply then as i dont think giving the reason would be useful maybe i shouldve. she hasnt yet read the reply as she hasnt logged in where we met online (through a gsme i know its sad)

 

i went NC as i knew i cant really do anything and i guess to an extent to try to forget about her. during and still really NC as i havent bothered to contact her in other online ways (msn etc) she was on my mind so i havent lost interest really. i dont know if i want to be friends with her or civil as i dont really expect her to want to get back cause really that is going to my reason for saying i want to be friends, though i would like to but in the end i just cant be there for her where she lives. she did once on msn say should i get a ticket and visit me (i was made redundant at work and til now couldnt get a job) and i didnt say yes said hehe and she said you didnt believe me about that ticket . i did say i believed the comment and said when and she said need to save money. i dont know if she was serious at that time.

 

now last night i did reply and said ive thought about it and friends then but she was afk this time but she logged off a few minutes later.

 

did i do the right thing in replying?