thinking about sending this email

[Howitzer]

McGrupp, it seems like you've been hung up on this girl for a long time. Have you tried imagining that you'll find someone who will make you feel the same way in the future, but someone better for you? I think that's key to letting go; you have to feel like you have somewhere to look forward to when you move on.

[DenverBachelor]

yerright

 

i was never that guy.

 

never. and then i fell into that. i fell so hard. realized i am that guy now.

 

ive been with other since then. but ****.

 

i read this and was embarresed.

 

http://www.heartless-bitches.com/rants/niceguys/niceguys.shtml

 

You're not the first guy in the world to **** up with a woman. Sometimes you have to mess up multiple times before it finally sinks in. That's why we grow from relationships. Your mistake is believing that this one woman is the sole judge of the entire female population. You screwed up with her -- **** happens. But you know what? You learned a lot from it and now you're going to be ten times better in your next relationship.

 

She'll forget about it over time. You may even end up as a sidebar happy memory -- but not if you blow it all to hell by focusing on this until hell freezes over.

 

Everyone makes mistakes. You're not the first guy to play "nice" with a woman because you didn't know better. You'll grow from the experience and be more of a man from it. Even if it takes you a few more relationships, you'll figure it out. Just don't get to wrapped up in the "oh happily ever after hubby and wifey BS." All relationships eventually go South and that's when you need two people that are mature to stick it out and realize love is greater than lust.

 

Most live in lust their entire lives and think it is love. Few ever really experience "true love."

 

It sucks. But you don't have to fall for the BS.

[GrayClouds]

Put your right foot in, take your right foot out, do a little twist, turn around and about Now your doing the hookie pookie and that is what it is all about.

 

 

 

 

Still wanting to play this game, Mcgrupp? You know better. Find something better to do with your time...if it poetry you want to write how about something with a dozen good rhyme to the word omelets?

 

 

Your getting there, keep moving forward.

 

 

.

[mickleb]

if it poetry you want to write how about something with a dozen good rhyme to the word omelets?

 

Yes, McGrupp.

 

Could you Google the difference between 'omelette' and 'emulate', asap?

 

Ta.

 

x

[sean1970]

i had this ****ing vivid dream last night. she was in bed with me. i was on top of her. i looked at her and said i miss you. she said she missed me too. and then i said i have to say good bye and her face became all blurry and then i woke up and it was intense.

 

it was wild and i saw her

 

It was me in a wig... Damn you are heavy...

[GrayClouds]

Yes, McGrupp.

 

Could you Google the difference between 'omelette' and 'emulate', asap?

 

Ta.

 

x

 

 

Just like a girl showing off her superior intelligence...such a little tartlet.

 

 

 

It was me in a wig... Damn you are heavy...

 

Sean he's not heavy his my borther....:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7HPqi5uVeo&feature=related

 

 

 

,

Edited January 13, 2010 by GrayClouds

[McGrupp]

how about this letter.

 

"hey you,

 

ive been banging random whores i meet at the bars. its just not the same as banging you. you treated me pretty ****ty there at the end.

 

i mean a ****ing post it note, with im sorry on it?

 

wo and then i came and pleaded and begged.

 

u know what?? i deserve so much better.

 

anywho i hope you find that life isnt half as funny without me in it!

 

 

mcgrupp

 

ps : i want my zeppelin cd's back

Edited January 13, 2010 by McGrupp

[HeavenOrHell]

:laugh:

 

 

It was me in a wig... Damn you are heavy...

[sean1970]

Sean he's not heavy his my borther....:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7HPqi5uVeo&feature=related

,

 

Very nice

[McGrupp]

i am having like an epic relapse. all i wana do is call her.

 

ever since i got home its been bad. gotta leave here soon.

 

email i just typed, using this thread a s place to vent so bear with me:

 

"**** it. i know im moving on but i ****ing miss you.

 

i know i shouldnt say that but its the truth. i know ive made you feel uncomfortable and awkward but **** it. all those emotions i put out were pure. we were pure.

 

but seriously if there is no shot anyway...i ****ing miss you and you might as well know it. i miss the subleties of you. i miss that you practiced reiki or your garden on the porch. i miss you smile and laugh, and the way you looked at me.

 

im not sure why i want to go back when there is so much pain there. im not sure. but i miss you as a friend and companion and everything. and it just strait up sucks. ya know?

 

i acted immature. i was a kid. i had to grow up. i regret the way i acted but if u care, u care and you know that wasnt me. i had to find happiness again.

 

thats it strait up. i was just so afraid to lose you i did all these things... i understand how it pushed you away. i wish we just sat down and talked in august or whenever. i regret that.

 

but i cant make you love me. you feel the way you feel. im not sure if i lov you anymore."

 

n-

Edited January 14, 2010 by McGrupp

[HeavenOrHell]

It's ok to vent on here as long as you don't SEND this one to her, I stand by what I said about the original one you wrote on this thread but leaving the last bit out.

 

 

 

i am having like an epic relapse. all i wana do is call her.

 

ever since i got home its been bad. gotta leave here soon.

 

email i just typed, using this thread a s place to vent so bear with me:

 

"**** it. i know im moving on but i ****ing miss you.

 

i know i shouldnt say that but its the truth. i know ive made you feel uncomfortable and awkward but **** it. all those emotions i put out were pure. we were pure.

 

but seriously if there is no shot anyway...i ****ing miss you and you might as well know it. i miss the subleties of you. i miss that you practiced reiki or your garden on the porch. i miss you smile and laugh, and the way you looked at me.

 

im not sure why i want to go back when there is so much pain there. im not sure. but i miss you as a friend and companion and everything. and it just strait up sucks. ya know?

 

i acted immature. i was a kid. i had to grow up. i regret the way i acted but if u care, u care and you know that wasnt me. i had to find happiness again.

 

thats it strait up. i was just so afraid to lose you i did all these things... i understand how it pushed you away. i wish we just sat down and talked in august or whenever. i regret that.

 

but i cant make you love me. you feel the way you feel. im not sure if i lov you anymore."

 

n-

[McGrupp]

i need to vent. all the feeling are coming back so when i feel like i "need" to contact her im going to just put it in here. im not looking for responses and a i hate to spam the board, but i feel like this is helping.

 

when i see my words within the LS realm i can see how they really look.

 

so il try not to but if i feel the need im going to vent in here. not for attention, but im tired of talking about it to friends/family, im working alone all days this week (10-9) so LS has become my pychologist again.

[GrayClouds]

i need to vent. all the feeling are coming back so when i feel like i "need" to contact her im going to just put it in here. im not looking for responses and a i hate to spam the board, but i feel like this is helping.

 

when i see my words within the LS realm i can see how they really look.

 

so il try not to but if i feel the need im going to vent in here. not for attention, but im tired of talking about it to friends/family, im working alone all days this week (10-9) so LS has become my pychologist again.

 

 

I suspect what your really saying is your bored, lonely and a bit horny. Going to work is a big magnifier of those facts. Find a way to solve that problem and you will be less incline to think about the EX. Because it is easier to think about he EX than to do something different.

 

So how about come up with something to look forward to after work evey night this week. One night go out to a pub with a friend. Another have coffee with a family member, next night your going try a new gym. Following your renting your favorite move and watch at your buddies. Make it so you look forward to getting off work. So in the morning you have something you like waiting for you that will put you around people.

 

And keep posting on LS, I miss you if you didn't

[McGrupp]

I suspect what your really saying is your bored, lonely and a bit horny. Going to work is a big magnifier of those facts. Find a way to solve that problem and you will be less incline to think about the EX. Because it is easier to think about he EX than to do something different.

i agree!

 

what helps me now is thinking about ways to move my life forward ( starting a website, my sketch group, moving, going back to school)

 

i really love checking out that dude silicontoads posts from back in the day. dude was kicking people's asses since day one.

 

NC from now on. keep it moving man...

 

 

but yeah the boredom makes my mind go crazy!!.

 

got the kindle here. dl'ing some tony robbins. maybe that dude can motivate me to get my ass in gear

 

also on the plus side, our cable system just eliminated the food network. thats all she watches! finally. satisfaction if the form of no rachel ray!

Edited January 14, 2010 by McGrupp

[GrayClouds]

 

got the kindle here. dl'ing some tony robbins. maybe that dude can motivate me to get my ass in gear

 

Stop with tony you have all ready empower yourself. Stop reading stuff to remind you what you think your not. Read some stuff that reminds you who you are; a crazy emotional MF with a great sense of humor.

 

Pick up some Tom Robbins "Still Life with Woodpecker", Tim Sandlin "Western Swing", Chuck Palahnuik "Choke" and Christopher Moore "The Lust Lizard of Melancholy Cove" these are the people you should be hanging with while at work.

Edited January 14, 2010 by GrayClouds

[McGrupp]

bought lust lizzer. so far pretty good.

[GrayClouds]

it will not change your world but I find reading about people crazier then me can be very therapeutic besides I have a hard time believing anything that is nonfiction!

[McGrupp]

another email:

 

"i agree with all the stuff you had to do to get away. we became toxic for each other. im happy this happened as it gave me a lot of clarity on my goals and aspirations.

 

i hope we can hang out though. i kinda miss you"

 

so sappy...hahaha

[GrayClouds]

another email:

 

"i agree with all the stuff you had to do to get away. we became toxic for each other. im happy this happened as it gave me a lot of clarity on my goals and aspirations.

 

i hope we can hang out though. i kinda miss you"

 

so sappy...hahaha

 

What She will read:

 

"I am still an idiot because I think my permission for you to leave means anything at this point, as if it ever meant anything. I am now going to say that this break up is a great thing for me because I become such a better person you should come back.

 

I am still hung up on you, Why don't you still love me"

 

so sad...no hahaha

[Peter_pan]

its probably already been said. but take it from me (two years after break up)

dont send it. My advice would be to keep it but dont send it.

 

I still have "that" letter i was going to send her, when i read it, it is amazing to see how much i really loved her, but seems crazy she didnt want to know.

 

shame really.

 

anyway keep it to yourself and maybe read it in a year or so.

 

if you have already done all you can (actions speak louder than words) then just let it rest.

 

peace x

[Bulldozed]

another email:

 

"i agree with all the stuff you had to do to get away. we became toxic for each other. im happy this happened as it gave me a lot of clarity on my goals and aspirations.

 

i hope we can hang out though. i kinda miss you"

 

Sappy, maybe? Won't don't you try writing a letter from her to you, stating all the things that they realized SHE did wrong in your relationship. I wrote an epic letter from my ex to me. It was a very therapeutic exercise....

[McGrupp]

she wrote me a bunch of letters. all posted throughout LS.

 

some were great from when i dumped her last year ( iwant to be with you forever, im sorry i cheated, i love you...blah blha blha)

 

and then new ones from this year (what we had was special , u think this is easy for me, blah, blah, blah)

 

meh. rebound just popped into work. she is happy cause she met someone but she said she still "loves" me and cherishes me as a friend.

 

ahhhhh life. actually, this girl, the rebound is so much sweeter a person then my ex. i should focus on that, the good friends i have, the family i have and the knowledge that I WILL MEET someone new.

 

i think i attach to the ex so much because she did come back last year and say those things (so i think the feelings might still be there) and that i loved HER life. her city, her job, her apartment, HER life. that was hard coming back to earth whilst being attached to that location and comfort.

 

big part of it.

 

anywho...no more letters i think.

 

 

a classic mcgrupp thread goes full circle yet again.

Edited January 14, 2010 by McGrupp

[Ms. Joolie]

You're so silly, McGrupp. Lots of girls will chase you, or you can chase lots of girls. I'm sure you're a likable guy.

 

Just go for it. One way or another. Move forward, or cast all ego aside and call her. Call her. Don't be scared.

 

Just do something.

 

Glad you took your trip. That was something, something great actually. lol

[Ms. Joolie]

What I mean to say is that I'm glad you're still venting with us.... just keep moving forward to something. =D

[McGrupp]

Just go for it. One way or another. Move forward, or cast all ego aside and call her. Call her. Don't be scared.

 

u always want me to contact her. why is that? yer the only one lol...