Author MySweetie'sGone Posted January 17, 2010 Author Share Posted January 17, 2010 Yes aerogurl I hope I reach that point soon too! You're right...I feel a rebound would be the quickest way to heal my heart...but I couldnt even if I tried. If I just TALK to another guy I still feel like I'm cheating. I cant sleep...I cant eat...and our breakup just hit the two month mark. I'm not making any progress...I cannot believe this man who LOVED me so much has let us go and refuses to look back. He keeps claiming that he's suffering as much as I am (he sure sounds fine to me) and gets angry when I tell him he can't possibly feel what I do. & anyway...if it hurt him SOO much why did he do it? & why won't he come back?? I'm hurting so much right now...my heart feels as though it's going to burst out of my chest and I can't stop crying...just because I DID invest so much into our relationship. I literally feel sick that he can just take this all in stride... He should be feeling like this...Will my day ever come? Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted January 17, 2010 Author Share Posted January 17, 2010 Please someone help me hit the block button on FB... Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted January 17, 2010 Author Share Posted January 17, 2010 I messed up by allowing him to break NC over Christmas...didn't I? Maybe if I had continued to ignore him just a little longer we would be together now. I gave his guilt relief by replying to him and then seeing him and being oh so nice about it!!! Then again he could have just left for school and I would never hear from him again bc he gave up. I always mess things up because I think too much, lack patience, and am too kind-hearted. I cant even hit the freaking BLOCK button on FACEBOOK bc I dont want to hurt his feelings and at the same time I'm also afraid he won't care if I do and will never ever contact me again. I just keep thinking what-if? He initially seemed so sad & said "the what-if voices and voices of regret were haunting him and everything was his fault and asked me where do we go from here?" then he took it back...because I responded Link to post Share on other sites
bananaboat11 Posted January 17, 2010 Share Posted January 17, 2010 Don't drag through the mud b/c of some breadcrumbs... you need to be 100% sure you BOTH are willing to make it work... otherwise it'll end up being trial and tribulation.. Ultimately, leading to either you, him, or both of you being emotionally heartbroken... (again). Second chances are possible, but aren't easy... I know from a past experience... now we're best friends. The future could hold great things for her and me... it may not. You just need to live your life focusing on you and bettering yourself so that you will be a better lover, person, companion, girlfriend for a better man... one who will make you happy for who you are... who he is... and the like for him because of you... To love him like crazy and he'll love you right back. Don't seek it... reflect on yourself so you're no longer blinded by the torment of 'What if?'... and be the best you can be so that one day.. there won't be the 'What If?'... it'll just be... and you won't even think about it... Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted January 17, 2010 Author Share Posted January 17, 2010 ...I feel...like nothing Like a thief in the night he came This man who stole my heart and then left me Alone and BREATHLESS Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted January 18, 2010 Author Share Posted January 18, 2010 banana? Oh moe? anyone there? lol. Also, how do you deleter posts on this thing...? Link to post Share on other sites
madisonlayne Posted January 18, 2010 Share Posted January 18, 2010 You sound like a good person. I'm sorry this guy is doing this to you. I've been in NC for 5 days - feels like forever to me. So, I can relate a bit. I think most if not all people get a bit of those obsessive thoughts or memory "dumps" when going through break ups. The thing that helps me the most is writing down every bad thing my ex did or said to me. This way when I start missing him so bad or remembering the good times we had, I can remind myself that I deserve so much better from him and if he isn't willing to give that to me then someone else will in time. Ugg, either way, I know it's still hard. Especially your FB problem. You know inside that it's best to just block him out but you still can't bring yourself to break all ties. Just take it day by day. I've always believed people come into our lives to teach us something. Sometimes the lessons are hard to swallow but they do make us stronger. Link to post Share on other sites
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