USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 inside, i'm dead... void... emotionless... hurt... scared... crying wtf @ me I didn't want to say anything, but I guess I'll go ahead and say it, because this exact thing happened to me...I think it was around October... I came to the same revelations as you did in regard to my ex...it was more pity than anger...realizing that I was the best thing she'd ever have and she gave that up and will have to live the rest of her life knowing that...that I could do much better than her...that I had my life together and she didn't...that I didn't need her in my life anymore...I was actually sitting at the bar with my brother that night and we talked about how overwhelmingly unremarkable she was... I felt good...for about a week...and then I just suddenly hit rock bottom...all that I had thought the week before just flew out the window...suddenly I needed her back in my life more than I had ever needed anything...I felt dead inside, wondering how I would ever manage to go on without her...I was determined to guard my heart from everyone and never allow myself to be hurt again... The reason I'm saying this is that this happens to all of us...the moments we are the strongest will sometimes be met with short moments of weakness...but as time passes, each weak moment gets a little less bad...until they completely fade away...you will be back on your feet in no time... I remember earlier this week you made some remarkable posts about your progress...and now you're little bump along the road...you'll come out of it a much better person...and better prepared for any little bumps that come along in the future... Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 I didn't want to say anything, but I guess I'll go ahead and say it, because this exact thing happened to me...I think it was around October... I came to the same revelations as you did in regard to my ex...it was more pity than anger...realizing that I was the best thing she'd ever have and she gave that up and will have to live the rest of her life knowing that...that I could do much better than her...that I had my life together and she didn't...that I didn't need her in my life anymore...I was actually sitting at the bar with my brother that night and we talked about how overwhelmingly unremarkable she was... I felt good...for about a week...and then I just suddenly hit rock bottom...all that I had thought the week before just flew out the window...suddenly I needed her back in my life more than I had ever needed anything...I felt dead inside, wondering how I would ever manage to go on without her...I was determined to guard my heart from everyone and never allow myself to be hurt again... The reason I'm saying this is that this happens to all of us...the moments we are the strongest will sometimes be met with short moments of weakness...but as time passes, each weak moment gets a little less bad...until they completely fade away...you will be back on your feet in no time... I remember earlier this week you made some remarkable posts about your progress...and now you're little bump along the road...you'll come out of it a much better person...and better prepared for any little bumps that come along in the future... ok.. and i'm crying now. well there goes that alpha male I was right out the window. Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 ive been rocking this song everytime i feel down. dont know if youve seen the movie yet, but its the jam he uses to get his life back in order. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsnNDtO6inw Link to post Share on other sites
EricaH329 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 ok.. and i'm crying now. well there goes that alpha male I was right out the window. Aww we are here for you Rob!!! And just because you are crying does NOT make you any less of a man. It makes you an honest one. A great one. Do not ever think otherwise!! Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 u can cry-bate its a term i coined way back in october and was quite the rage for a bit on LS. ill let you guess what it is... Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 ok.. and i'm crying now. well there goes that alpha male I was right out the window. I'll pretend you didn't say this... But to be honest, after having been in your shoes (well, probably not your shoes, as I imagine you have a decent foot size, and I got stuck with girl-feet...), but no words will give you comfort to help you through the night...it's something you have to just cry through on your own...because all the strength you need is already in you...you already possess it...we all know that, because you've demonstrated it before...so you'll just have to give yourself up to those emotions for a night...let it all out...and you'll soon feel better... This sh*t happens to all of us...and I know that you know that it's just another little bump in the road...you're still the same awesome alpha dawg that we know and love...and to be honest, no one needs to convince you of that because you KNOW it... Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 ok.. i'm good. i think. Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 (edited) i find that when im overcome i write an email. i say everything im feeling towrds her. i dont send it. i save it in drafts and come back in 20 minutes..an hour..a day. when you see those things later on you dont even feel them any more. and then i delete. and cry-bate Edited January 29, 2010 by McGrupp Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 cry-bate... interesting Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 (edited) i just wrote this letter. feels good cause i can see im moving on. sort of. hey, i just want to say i still think about you. i miss you a lot. i miss your kiss and your smile and your laugh. life is short man. i just have to say these things. or i will regret that i never did. i think i will always love you. i think. no, i know. i will and i dont care if you dont. i do. i love you Lauren. **** it. i know your not coming back. and i know i pushed you away and i dont care anymore. please dont respond either. im being selfish and this is all for me. so i can move on. so u can know i will always care for you. n- see i wont feel that way tomorrow. maybe ill hate her. maybe ill feel indifferent. who knows? but it feels good to vent. Edited January 29, 2010 by McGrupp Link to post Share on other sites
EricaH329 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 cry-bate... interesting I don't get it? Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 I don't get it? (neither do I) Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 (neither do I) Make that three of us... Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 it when you guys jerk-off with your tears. jeez get with it. Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 it when you guys jerk-off with your tears. jeez get with it. i just jerk off... internet porn is great. actually I have a semi-FWB... when she wants it... for some reason, i'm there. Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 it when you guys jerk-off with your tears. jeez get with it. Ummm...I'm not gonna lie...but I definitely would not be in the mood if I'm crying... Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 I hate that women see me for my body and my penis... I should feel great. no, i feel used, abused, disgusting... and i can go on... there's more to a relationship than just sex... FML. Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 yeah its um a joke. but lets just walk it off. its cool. Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 nvm:bunny: Link to post Share on other sites
EricaH329 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Hmmmmm...... Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 I hate that women see me for my body and my penis... I should feel great. no, i feel used, abused, disgusting... and i can go on... there's more to a relationship than just sex... FML. Rob, you SHOULD feel great...because you see what a relationship should be all about...and you should feel great that you've rid yourself of someone who doesn't appreciate what a relationship can bring to a happy life...you deserve someone who understands, just as you do, what a meaningful relationship entails...and someone who will truly appreciate what you will offer to her just as she will offer to you... Stop it with this FML bullsh*t...it's really unbecoming of a gentleman... Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Rob...I don't know if you listen to this kind of music, but take a listen to this song...it has lyrics attached... Boys Like Girls - Broken Man http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Et4gqnpmSc This is you and me both, my friend...you and me both... Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 tough crowd. Link to post Share on other sites
Author bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 Rob...I don't know if you listen to this kind of music, but take a listen to this song...it has lyrics attached... Boys Like Girls - Broken Man http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Et4gqnpmSc This is you and me both, my friend...you and me both... Much appreciated Kelvin. Im I'm bed on my phone now bc I'm sick. WIll giveta listen tom. tIamk you so much Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Much appreciated Kelvin. Im I'm bed on my phone now bc I'm sick. WIll giveta listen tom. tIamk you so much Alright man, have a good night, and take it easy...sh*t'll get better...you know it will... But have a good weekend (you too Erica!)...and stop being sick... P.S. You people with your fancy phones that have internet...pshhh.... Link to post Share on other sites
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