MySweetie'sGone Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 Don't want to be here anymore. Don't want to be anywhere. This sh*t is all just...pointless. What's the f@ck*ng point? Like, why am I still breathing. Why? Nobody is truly happy, every time you turn around something else bad happens. I'm gonna go GOOGLE "how to die in your sleep" b/c I'm a wimp. Link to post Share on other sites
USMCHokie Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 I will slap the sh*t out of you...I know you have so much going for you in life that a breakup isn't worth sacrificing all that...stop "McGrupp'in"... Link to post Share on other sites
sean1970 Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 ...stop "McGrupp'in"... The man is a Verb now Link to post Share on other sites
Maddi_is_broken Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 You shouldn't let a break up totally destroy your life. My girl friend just dumped me a few days ago, and I'm truely happy...You need to learn to smile because it happened, not cry because its over Always remember how lucky you are that they were once yours! Link to post Share on other sites
HeavenOrHell Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 It's good you're happy, but every situation is different, maybe you wouldn't feel happy if you'd been in a very long relationship if she'd treated you well, and you still loved her. I personally don't feel lucky to have been so happy for nearly 20 years and now it's all gone, but I'm sure I will get bored with all this soon and move on. You shouldn't let a break up totally destroy your life. My girl friend just dumped me a few days ago, and I'm truely happy...You need to learn to smile because it happened, not cry because its over Always remember how lucky you are that they were once yours! Link to post Share on other sites
HeavenOrHell Posted January 28, 2010 Share Posted January 28, 2010 Don't beat yourself up for being heartbroken hun. I know exactly what you're saying and I often pray I won't wake up, pathetic I know but it's how I feel. But hey we'll get through this and we will probably be stronger for it Don't want to be here anymore. Don't want to be anywhere. This sh*t is all just...pointless. What's the f@ck*ng point? Like, why am I still breathing. Why? Nobody is truly happy, every time you turn around something else bad happens. I'm gonna go GOOGLE "how to die in your sleep" b/c I'm a wimp. Link to post Share on other sites
prayingshecomesback Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Don't want to be here anymore. Don't want to be anywhere. This sh*t is all just...pointless. What's the f@ck*ng point? Like, why am I still breathing. Why? Nobody is truly happy, every time you turn around something else bad happens. I'm gonna go GOOGLE "how to die in your sleep" b/c I'm a wimp. MSG..Im thinking of you. I know how you feel. Hang in there. We will meet up at Tavern on Phipps and you can pour your heart out to me... I know my friends were sick of hearing about it, and so I had to find other people to talk about it to. I will be "that" new friend. hehe Link to post Share on other sites
bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 MSG, love, please... if you need to talk we are all here. It's hard, but it does get easier... Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 oh man...im a walking joke. ::sigh:: Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted January 29, 2010 Author Share Posted January 29, 2010 Thank you all so much...you don't even know me...yet you care. Instances like this are the only thing that helps me maintain a modicum of respect for mankind. I just hate waking up...feeling like this. It just doesn't make sense...I wonder what I or anyone feeling pain (not just over breakups but life's many other problems) did to deserve this... Sometimes my emotions overwhelm me...and what I wrote...was really and truly in all seriousness. Sometimes I'm fine, great even but other times...life is unbearable. The funny thing...just as I was crying and posting this morning...thinking how much I miss my "best friend" I get a crumb from...HIM. It's like he can sense when I'm down...& I think of the connection I THOUGHT we had. It's a text with his new cell number ("Hi it's me...etc"...) & me, being the nice person I am, reply to acknowledge I got it and he asks me how I'm doing. Lying (through my tears) I say "fine. u?" and he replies "makin it". MAKIN IT? MAKIN IT? YOU're the one frickin MAKIN IT?? Really? I thought leaving me was the cure-for all your stress! You are the cause of my pain...my fleeting thoughts of... so i didn't reply. Praying is right...everyone gets so tired of me talking about it...so I've just started keeping it inside...but that hurts worse. It just won't be buried. Thank you all so much for encouragement. I feel pretty...okay right now. Saturday this time I'll be at a Robin Thicke concert...great...love songs. This'll be a test. *sigh* Link to post Share on other sites
broncosfrk83 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Understand how u feel MSG. My ex just posted a sexy picture of her self on facebook and its bringing me to my knees. Just dont see how they can go from loving u, to only wanting to ur friend. Link to post Share on other sites
bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Understand how u feel MSG. My ex just posted a sexy picture of her self on facebook and its bringing me to my knees. Just dont see how they can go from loving u, to only wanting to ur friend. block her... they love to do this **** to us. Link to post Share on other sites
broncosfrk83 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Did block her.....say it on another friends facebook. Dont understand how she can be a slut all of a sudden....She wants to **** her life up...FINE! Link to post Share on other sites
bananaboat11 Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Did block her.....say it on another friends facebook. Dont understand how she can be a slut all of a sudden....She wants to **** her life up...FINE! hm, lucky for me all the mutual friends were not a significant part of my life... so I cut them out. They all overlooked what nicole (my ex) did to me... that's not a friend. Link to post Share on other sites
xbluudevilx Posted January 29, 2010 Share Posted January 29, 2010 Always remember how lucky you are that they were once yours! i like that. High 5. Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted February 4, 2010 Author Share Posted February 4, 2010 Today...I want to curl up into a ball and DIE. Link to post Share on other sites
bananaboat11 Posted February 4, 2010 Share Posted February 4, 2010 Today...I want to curl up into a ball and DIE. hun, I know it's hard, but this isn't the way to go about it. Lonliness... heartbreak... We ask ourselves how this is possible? how can someone be so evil? how / why is he/she so mad.. so cold... so distant? ...we can't and shouldn't question those unanswered queries... rather, look internally. Look to your heart... look to your soul... and reflect on how incredible you truly are. You were hurt... Now he is afraid. If you haven't had your time to grieve... do it now. do it at your very worst so when you're at your best.. you will absolutely be truly there. I did... I cried for her late one evening... they were sour times for me. I tore up the last love note I had from her... my electric fire place was roaring... was curled up on the loveseat staring out the window... all we have are our memories... and we should cherish the good and dispose of the bad. Be happy for the good times you shared. ...I tried, so hard. There was such a bitter taste in my mouth - I threw away it all... ...and lying there with my legs hanging over the arm of the loveseat and looking up as the rain kissed the window pane, I began to fall asleep. I found myself standing in the middle of a dark room... a weird, dim light pouring down upon me. I could barely make out the shadows moving around me as she emerged from the darkness and into my arms. I pressed her ear close to my chest so she could hear how loudly my heart beats for her. She drew her eyes to mine, but I could not see through... All I could see was my reflection. We danced, ever so slowly, to the silence. I whispered, "I love you...". She smiled as her lips moved, but no sound emerged. I closed my eyes and began to cry as the room began to burn. The floor beneath giving way to the pressure I began to press back as she stepped towards the flame. I cried for her to come back as she fell into the blackness below. I awoke in a cold sweat... I thought I was going to vomit. I have never cried so hard in my life. That was almost one month ago... Be strong, MSG. Link to post Share on other sites
silic0ntoad Posted February 4, 2010 Share Posted February 4, 2010 MSG- We've all been there. You'll get through it. First step? Get over the hurt. And Get angry. It helps. Anger, when harnessed is a powerful force. When T walked away from me, I went schizoid. I had no idea what was going on. I was rabid. I don't have FB or Myspace, but I attribute FB to the downfall of our relationship. She met the guy she cheated on me with through work because of FB. Now they are in a relationship. Am I hurt, now? 8 months down the road, I can say no. I wish she had the spine to tell the truth, yes. But am I angry? Still? Yes. I was betrayed. Betrayal is a bitter, bitter sword to bear. I just want, for once, to fall in love and have it NOT hurt in the end. But that is unrealistic. And ridiculous. You'll be ok. Man up. Take the pain, and let it out. Get angry. To get angry is to get over it. It helps. Alot. Link to post Share on other sites
sunrae Posted February 4, 2010 Share Posted February 4, 2010 I just want, for once, to fall in love and have it NOT hurt in the end. But that is unrealistic. And ridiculous. It's out there, the love we all want and deserve... We just have to kick these toads to the curb first... When we find it, we will truely appriciate it, and they us, because before we came along they kissed toads too.... Link to post Share on other sites
Silver_star Posted February 4, 2010 Share Posted February 4, 2010 Your relationship should not be your life and it should NOT define you as a person. Therefore YOU are not broken..your relationship is. And new ones will come but u need to stand strong..and its okay to cry and be sad and be mad...but dont ever think that there is no point in taking in a breath of air. You are extremly lucky to be able to do so with no difficulty. Someone out there in the world would LOVE to have your problems in exchange for their own. So take solace in the fact that you can do soo much with your life, that you can make friends, that you can see the world, and that you can enjoy your family or creaete your own one day. Link to post Share on other sites
malc Posted February 5, 2010 Share Posted February 5, 2010 MSG, I feel for you, today has also been one of my worst days, here I am cant get the ex (who broke it off with me) off my chest, and then seem to get constant 'how are you, im overwhelmingly happy' emails. She broke my heart and now is concerned about me. I think you guys are right but so far I have been too thick and too stupid to accept total NC as a fear of totally losing her off the radar, I really should now let her go, and start to move on. Arghhh!! I hate this situation, she used a once very happy single guy to cure her own depression, insecurities and loneliness, then once shes back on her feet, throws him away like trash and hes now the lonely one. How can the cycle reverse in just months. And now shes worried about me but wants me to do well and move on? Is this a nice girl? Link to post Share on other sites
HockeyMom Posted February 5, 2010 Share Posted February 5, 2010 Thank you all so much...you don't even know me...yet you care. Instances like this are the only thing that helps me maintain a modicum of respect for mankind. I just hate waking up...feeling like this. It just doesn't make sense...I wonder what I or anyone feeling pain (not just over breakups but life's many other problems) did to deserve this... Sometimes my emotions overwhelm me...and what I wrote...was really and truly in all seriousness. Sometimes I'm fine, great even but other times...life is unbearable. The funny thing...just as I was crying and posting this morning...thinking how much I miss my "best friend" I get a crumb from...HIM. It's like he can sense when I'm down...& I think of the connection I THOUGHT we had. It's a text with his new cell number ("Hi it's me...etc"...) & me, being the nice person I am, reply to acknowledge I got it and he asks me how I'm doing. Lying (through my tears) I say "fine. u?" and he replies "makin it". MAKIN IT? MAKIN IT? YOU're the one frickin MAKIN IT?? Really? I thought leaving me was the cure-for all your stress! You are the cause of my pain...my fleeting thoughts of... so i didn't reply. Praying is right...everyone gets so tired of me talking about it...so I've just started keeping it inside...but that hurts worse. It just won't be buried. Thank you all so much for encouragement. I feel pretty...okay right now. Saturday this time I'll be at a Robin Thicke concert...great...love songs. This'll be a test. *sigh* Hi MSG, I'm right there with ya.. In so many ways I feel the same way. There are so many days that life feels unbearable however I have a teenager that needs me so checking out would never be an option. I would rather suffer every day and live on hope than do anything to hurt the people that do love me. I don't have a lot of friends or family that understand what I'm going through so ya, lately I have to keep more in and i just feel like I get worse and worse every day instead of better. Although, i do set little goals for myself and today was the first day back at the gym since we split. But, I even cried there... Listening to my ipod was tough, a song comes on and tears just start coming. I'm going on 5 months... lost my job and love of my life all in the same week. I'm seeing a therapist and that helps also I guess but an hour a week sometimes doesn't feel like enough, so I've been coming here just about every night and reading other people's stories. i commend all of you who don't jump at "crumbs" because I am constantly waiting for any chance of one I can get. Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted February 10, 2010 Author Share Posted February 10, 2010 Hi MSG, I'm right there with ya.. In so many ways I feel the same way. There are so many days that life feels unbearable however I have a teenager that needs me so checking out would never be an option. I would rather suffer every day and live on hope than do anything to hurt the people that do love me. I don't have a lot of friends or family that understand what I'm going through so ya, lately I have to keep more in and i just feel like I get worse and worse every day instead of better. Although, i do set little goals for myself and today was the first day back at the gym since we split. But, I even cried there... Listening to my ipod was tough, a song comes on and tears just start coming. I'm going on 5 months... lost my job and love of my life all in the same week. I'm seeing a therapist and that helps also I guess but an hour a week sometimes doesn't feel like enough, so I've been coming here just about every night and reading other people's stories. i commend all of you who don't jump at "crumbs" because I am constantly waiting for any chance of one I can get. Thank you Hockeymom...your comment is a wonderful reminder that no matter how I may feel there are people who care about and depend on me...have high expectations for me. To give up would be so selfish of me...I would be no better than the man who left me for his own selfish reasons. I completely understand how you feel about music...i've started listening more to talk and sports radio bc i can't stand to hear music... Link to post Share on other sites
Beeotch Posted February 10, 2010 Share Posted February 10, 2010 Your relationship should not be your life and it should NOT define you as a person. Therefore YOU are not broken..your relationship is. And new ones will come but u need to stand strong..and its okay to cry and be sad and be mad...but dont ever think that there is no point in taking in a breath of air. You are extremly lucky to be able to do so with no difficulty. Someone out there in the world would LOVE to have your problems in exchange for their own. So take solace in the fact that you can do soo much with your life, that you can make friends, that you can see the world, and that you can enjoy your family or creaete your own one day. Beautifully said! Break ups hurt nooooo doubt. ALOT! But as you rightfully said, you still have life, you still have possibilities of a future, you have the chance and ability to learn and improve and be better and be happy again so there is nothing to kill one's self over. Although she is probably just exaggerating as we sometimes all do. But your thoughts are GREAT ones to think about. Link to post Share on other sites
Author MySweetie'sGone Posted February 11, 2010 Author Share Posted February 11, 2010 Beautifully said! Break ups hurt nooooo doubt. ALOT! But as you rightfully said, you still have life, you still have possibilities of a future, you have the chance and ability to learn and improve and be better and be happy again so there is nothing to kill one's self over. Although she is probably just exaggerating as we sometimes all do. But your thoughts are GREAT ones to think about. SHE is not exaggerating. Thanks...but you don't know me...nor how I feel. Link to post Share on other sites
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