I just...

[kristinabopp]

i feel the saaaame way. it hurts so bad. i know i wont be able to find someone like him again and be miserable for the rest of my life, i feel suicidal every single day missing him and him not stopping running in my head. i try to forget but its REALLY HARD. easier said than DONE! its easy for someone to say that we have to move on, but even if were trying its just hard and hurts more. and I DONT EVER WANNA FEEL THIS WAY AGAIN! im changing my goals of life, thats is to *focus on my school&work, meet new friends and NOT LOVE ANYMORE/not be in a relationship, and be rich and successful* thats all i wanted to do for the rest of my life.whats the point of loving if your most likely to get hurt.i dont want to get hurt again, i know you guys will probably say dont close the door and entertain guys, but i DONT LIKE TO HURT OTHER FEELINGS TOo, i dont like to reject someone coz i know being rejected by someone u like is painful. my ex is the only person who owns my heart and i can never ever replace him. whenever i imagine myself going out with a guy, i feel so sick of it. so i am totally not going to love anymore. id rather not get hurt again. u can say no to my point of view, but im comfortable with my decisions specially this one.

 

so MSG, ur definitely not alone with thse suicidal thing. im one of them too!and it sucks having to go through this ever minute/hours/day! u just want it to stop but u cant.. im sorry u and us are going through this.

[MySweetie'sGone]

i feel the saaaame way. it hurts so bad. i know i wont be able to find someone like him again and be miserable for the rest of my life, i feel suicidal every single day missing him and him not stopping running in my head. i try to forget but its REALLY HARD. easier said than DONE! its easy for someone to say that we have to move on, but even if were trying its just hard and hurts more. and I DONT EVER WANNA FEEL THIS WAY AGAIN! im changing my goals of life, thats is to *focus on my school&work, meet new friends and NOT LOVE ANYMORE/not be in a relationship, and be rich and successful* thats all i wanted to do for the rest of my life.whats the point of loving if your most likely to get hurt.i dont want to get hurt again, i know you guys will probably say dont close the door and entertain guys, but i DONT LIKE TO HURT OTHER FEELINGS TOo, i dont like to reject someone coz i know being rejected by someone u like is painful. my ex is the only person who owns my heart and i can never ever replace him. whenever i imagine myself going out with a guy, i feel so sick of it. so i am totally not going to love anymore. id rather not get hurt again. u can say no to my point of view, but im comfortable with my decisions specially this one.

 

so MSG, ur definitely not alone with thse suicidal thing. im one of them too!and it sucks having to go through this ever minute/hours/day! u just want it to stop but u cant.. im sorry u and us are going through this.

 

 

Hey kristina. You know, there ARE times when I feel like this...but Beeotch was right ...I was exaggerating because never in a million YEARS would I act on those feelings. I wouldn't use the term "suicidal" exactly...more like wanting to disappear lol (but only temporarily cuz I would want to come back). I have too much going for me nd I'm sure you do too. Too many people who love and care about me...including my ex. I would never want to make a whole bunch of other people miserable because of my selfishness, you know? aWe sink into the depths of sadness and may wallow there for a bit--but we can't stay down. I've gotten back into dance classes and writing poetry and things are getting better. But I still have my days when I can't BELIEVE my bf is gone. It just seems unreal. But I think about it less and less. I still have moments when I can't breathe and dying seems like the easiest thing but that's def a cop-out. My little brother said something that made me think...what if I really was...GONE? and right when I departed this earth was when my ex realized he wanted to be with me (ehh...) or I won the lottery or something? I wouldn't be here to reap the benefits...when if I'd only been PATIENT something good would've come along.

 

I understand never wanting to love again...I feel that way too. Right now the door is def closed. But I felt that way after my last ex...and I got over it. IF by some twist of fate my ex and I are not to be...THERE IS SOMEONE ELSE OUT THERE (as much as I hate the thought). It feels so good to know I'm not alone and to know that someone else is experiencing what I am:)

[kristinabopp]

i feel this everyday. nonstop. and it bothers me all the time and i just wish to not go through this stuff. but im done, this will be the last time im going to feel this way because im going to close my door for good.