Gunny376 Posted February 12, 2010 Share Posted February 12, 2010 I probally should have done it years upon years ago. Trying to be the "tough" Marine ~ John Wayne and all? The cheating WAW, the separation, the divorce, the bankruptcy, the IRS problems, 20+ in the Corps, Beirut, Rwanda, to name but a few. PTSD, Survivors guilt Tried to drown it all with alcohol, tried like Hell! She was acting single and I was drinking doubles! Made an appointment with a psychologist. The reason I'm posting this? Don't waste years like I did! Its OK to say you need help dealing with it all. Back in the day, you just had to suck it up! You were weakling otherwise! NOT SO! Life is hard no matter who you are? Life's a struggle no matter who or what you are? I got to the point where I just couldn't drag those dead horses and mules around with me everywhere I go! I got to where I couldn't keep digging up bones of a love that's long dead and gone! I use to love her a lot! Link to post Share on other sites
Ronni_W Posted February 12, 2010 Share Posted February 12, 2010 Made an appointment with a psychologist. Good on ya, Gunny! You sure are inspirational to be around...and fun, too Cheers and Best. Link to post Share on other sites
sumdude Posted February 12, 2010 Share Posted February 12, 2010 Remember how you've helped so many others in so many ways throughout your life. It's only right you're getting help yourself for a change. Your mouth swells up like a grapefruit? Don't think twice about going to the dentist do we? Break a leg falling? Might try to be tough for a minute but you know when it's that bad you see the doc. Why is it us guys in particular can't get help when our minds, hearts and souls are twisted up in knots? Link to post Share on other sites
Butterflair Posted February 12, 2010 Share Posted February 12, 2010 I'm thinking of doing the same thing. I don't want to carry guilt or emotional pain for years. I look at my mother and see what happens when you can't let it go. I don't want to be bitter and lonely in 20 years. I support you all the way. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Gunny376 Posted February 13, 2010 Author Share Posted February 13, 2010 I've been institualizied. Life made such more sense when I was in the Corps than out here in civilian la~la land with everyone running around in circles with their hands up in the air, screaming and shouting and no one in charge! I want to go back to prison! I want to go back to Shawshank, I want to go back to the Corps! Link to post Share on other sites
2sunny Posted February 13, 2010 Share Posted February 13, 2010 I've been institualizied. Life made such more sense when I was in the Corps than out here in civilian la~la land with everyone running around in circles with their hands up in the air, screaming and shouting and no one in charge! I want to go back to prison! I want to go back to Shawshank, I want to go back to the Corps! awww, big hugs Gunny! it can only get better... i too, was under lock down more than two years ago. fortunately, that lock down phase didn't last but a month or so. after my 20 year marriage ended i drank myself into oblivion. my sense of reality was completely off balance. getting well was a steady battle as i had lost use of my left side due to my excessive drinking. getting dressed and/or a shower wasn't even possible without help. i can tell you that life now is so amazing - after much hard work to understand what freedom and happiness looks like for me! take it one day at a time - go easy on yourself - stay in forward movement on getting well... these are huge strides and huge progress. Link to post Share on other sites
ilmw Posted February 13, 2010 Share Posted February 13, 2010 I've been institualizied. Life made such more sense when I was in the Corps than out here in civilian la~la land with everyone running around in circles with their hands up in the air, screaming and shouting and no one in charge! I want to go back to prison! I want to go back to Shawshank, I want to go back to the Corps! Gunny, You know what to do... You know how to do it... now do it. You gave me so much help during my dark, dark days... as you have done for so many others. Its good to see you seeking the same help from others now. You know you can get through what ever you are going through. You have survived all this time.. and have lived a good life. You know the drill... now do it. ilmw Link to post Share on other sites
Butterflair Posted February 13, 2010 Share Posted February 13, 2010 Life doesn't make sense sometimes. Never give up.. NEVER!!! Keep looking forward, not in the rear view mirror. Nothing is the same anymore, probably not even the Corps. Link to post Share on other sites
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