Author TRaczaj Posted March 19, 2010 Author Share Posted March 19, 2010 Your sexual scenarios seem a bit fanciful. I can't help it if they seem that way in type. They really happened. Link to post Share on other sites
Hi.P.O'Crit Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 It may be that my cynicism is clouding my judgment. Once he finds another job I'd be somewhat surprised if they stay. You say they've known of your feelings for her for a while now. Just doesn't seem like they're being friends to you. I say that mostly because you felt bad when she noted that you didn't stop by the bar where she works. Also, you haven't mentioned if they try to encourage you towards other women. Though I suppose that would put more stress in this situation. I just have a hard time seeing this friendship surviving. Link to post Share on other sites
Author TRaczaj Posted March 21, 2010 Author Share Posted March 21, 2010 It may be that my cynicism is clouding my judgment. Once he finds another job I'd be somewhat surprised if they stay. You say they've known of your feelings for her for a while now. Just doesn't seem like they're being friends to you. I say that mostly because you felt bad when she noted that you didn't stop by the bar where she works. Also, you haven't mentioned if they try to encourage you towards other women. Though I suppose that would put more stress in this situation. I just have a hard time seeing this friendship surviving. Yea... and that was before they knew how I felt about her. All she said was "I was surprised you didn't stop in tonight." She didn't complain about it. It was my decision to feel bad, not hers. Link to post Share on other sites
Author TRaczaj Posted March 29, 2010 Author Share Posted March 29, 2010 I just thought I would check in with everyone... doing alright lately. Link to post Share on other sites
Author TRaczaj Posted April 18, 2010 Author Share Posted April 18, 2010 Last night all three of us ended up at her parents' house where there was a party going on. Her parent's are really cool people. They're bikers and their house was always the party house when her and her siblings were growing up. Last night was a fun night... the alcohol was flowing and the conversation was interesting... The three of us were sitting at the kitchen table with her Mom, step dad, sister, and sister in law... The sister in law had her lap top and she was playing all these cheesy 80s songs. We all were doing shots and stuff, and at one point I just decided to reach over and grab her hand. (Her hand was under the table, on her lap) So I took her hand and intertwined my fingers with hers. She sat there and held my hand for a minute or so... then her step dad poured another round of shots for everyone and she let go and used that hand to do the shot. A little later on I was out on the back porch filling up glasses with ice and her Mom came out there to have a cigarette. (They don't smoke in the house.) Her Mom was obviously a little drunk by this point... And her Mom told me "I don't know why she doesn't just leave him and hook up with you..." And she went on to talk about how my friend can't find a job here and maybe he should go back where he's from because the job market is better there anyway. I know I haven't updated this thread in a long time... But there wasn't really much to update until now... Link to post Share on other sites
Meaplus3 Posted April 18, 2010 Share Posted April 18, 2010 Well.. now this sounds a bit touchy here. She's holding your hand.. and her mom has made a comment about the two of you hooking up. Sounds to me like your still in the same boat. And the boat is going to sink unless you drop the feelings for her. How can you do this to your best friend? Mea:) Link to post Share on other sites
Author TRaczaj Posted April 18, 2010 Author Share Posted April 18, 2010 I really don't know what I was thinking... I hate to sit here and make excuses... but I was drunk at the time. So was she. I don't think that would have ever happened if even one of us was sober. I didn't even think about it before I did it. She was sitting next to me and we were hanging out with her parents... In some strange way it just felt like the right thing to do. Things were getting better too. I really felt like I was putting a lot of this behind me. And now I have to wonder... what was her reason for letting me hold her hand? Was it just because she was drunk or was there more to it? I had a hard time sleeping last night. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened, and what her Mom said to me later on. I never knew her parents felt that way about me. My head is spinning right now. I need to cal down. Link to post Share on other sites
Meaplus3 Posted April 18, 2010 Share Posted April 18, 2010 It sounds like the two of you should NOT drink together. It could very well be the case that the alcohol.. got the best of her in an emtional way. I can see why your head is spinning.. this is going to turn into a nightmare if you don't get yourself out of the situation. Really.. you need to make a move away from this. Can you do that? Mea:) Link to post Share on other sites
Author TRaczaj Posted April 18, 2010 Author Share Posted April 18, 2010 I was shooting for June, to move out. I really hope my friend has a job by then. He had two interviews go really well last week. They both were for part time jobs, but he says if both places are willing to hire him he'll work both jobs. I also think it's a good ides for us to not drink together anymore... Because I'll admit it. If we would have been alone last night and she let me hold her hand, it wouldn't have stopped there. (Unless she stopped it.) But if we were alone, my next move would have been to kiss her. And who knows how far things would have gone after that. My friend was the furthest thing from my mind when I was holding her hand last night. And that's bad, considering he was sitting right there. Suddenly I feel so depressed. Maybe I should just go for a really long drive today and crank the music up really loud. That has always helped me feel better in the passed. Link to post Share on other sites
Author TRaczaj Posted April 20, 2010 Author Share Posted April 20, 2010 My friend has his second interview with one company today... I'm really hoping he comes home employed. Link to post Share on other sites
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